confession61;

❝ how should i even start this?
this might be unnecessary to read; but,
well, who cares? /chuckles bitterly.
well, first, i has a feeling on this guy, and
he took care amazingly well of me; that is
one of the reason i can say i fell for him.
as times passed, here, another person appears;
and i befriend her and we got closer; we're like
sibling. she start telling me her secrets; including
how she has a crush on him in pm. i wasn't able to
do anything. it's bitter and it's hurt. but, i don't
want to make her upset and let's our friendship
broke just becuase of one guy. i encouraged her;
tell her to fight for him and that she look good
together with him. i may look fine on the outside,
but, deep down; i'm hurt, as if thousand pieces of
my heart are missing. i couldn't do anything. i tried
to convince myself there will be many more guys
whom i deserve more than him, but i can't after
all he has done for me. and, i don't want my friendship
with both of them end in shattering way. i don't know
right now. my mind kept repeating the same time;
if he loves her back and they actually date, i'll
be happy for them and congratulate them. this is
actually tougher than i thought it would be. this is
getting longer, but, well...
i don't want to get offended by these things, i know
i should just forget about it and being my old self
again but it seems like it's going to take alot of time
to do so.

- thedepressedanonymous
[hint: i'm a person who likes black and grey]