I had a nightmare last night. It is not unusual for me to have nightmares but it is still a bit shocking after a while not having any. I have a weird feeling it is connected to the chapter I posted yesterday. You know, the chapter was partly derived from a true incident and thus it affects me so much. I thought I was now able to separate life from fiction, I was wrong. I am not sorry I wrote the chapter because it helped me to see the situation in a third person's point of view. What I regretted was my recklessness of not trying to "polish" things a bit to make it less.... terrifying. Hehehe, I know I sound exaggerating.

Anyhow, I met my former basketball coach in my dream, too. He looked just as I remembered him. Suddenly the dream wasn't as scary anymore. He used to help me a lot with my personal issues back when I was still his charge; I believe that at some points in our friendship I had grown to think of him more than just a coach. He was one of the best things in my life. Of course we were never romantically involved. Honest, I never thought that even in my dream -10 years after I last met him - he would still be the one who reached out and be my anchor. 

Maybe it's high time I called him to say hello. I still remember his phone number. How not? His number has been my ATM pin and all things requiring several digits of numbers since I was in high school.

This has been a personal musing of mine because I still feel so uneasy about the dream. Run along now, there's nothing to see here. Oh, and the chapter I am writing now is just as difficult.