I am sorry for my sudden hiatus. I have been put in the hospital once more, for the same reason as before. I guess you guise are wondering why huh? I decided it would be fun to try to kill myself again. I'm suicidal. I try not to talk about it but I guess I can't always avoid it. I didn't really achieve my goal this time but I did enough for them to put me in the hospital. I honestly am not satisfied with life. Nothing here really to live for in my opinion. Yeah, I was fine for about a year after Kpop but its only about the smallest distraction. I can't be left home alone anymore. My laptop and phone have been taken from me. I'm on Britts right now. She's really sick. She got put in the hospital too last night. She has a really high fever and hasn't come to yet. I'm worried, I really am, but I think she is possibly going to die. I want to die. She shouldn't. So I guess this is me saying goodbye. I am getting out of the hospital soon and once I do I am running. I am running far far away so I never have to comeback to this little town of nothing. I want to try and find something that's good for me before I kill myself. I even have it planned out. How I will die. Sad, huh? You're probably thinking what a pathetic person I am. I don't care. Go ahead and think what you want because I am going to die soon so it doesn't matter. I guess I will try and update you the next chance I get. But for now, bye. I won't be talking to anybody for a while. I will reply a few comments if there are any but, yeah..... Later.