It has been 956 days. Almost 3 years. Since July 10, 2010 until Feb 20, 2013. I think I'd felt many kind of feeling; happy, sad, bless, touched, and love. For all the things you'd given, I just can say thank you and sorry.

Honestly, I can't feel nothing but bitter inside. I cried then tried to find any good reason for not giving up like this. But I found nothing.

Its not your fault, its even far far away from yours. Its just me who cant endure any kind of pain anymore. Its killing me since...long time ago. Dont you ever realize that? Nope, bet you wont. You never.

Give up... Some people told me not to ever give up in any situation.

But hey, they dont know my situation. They dont know a single damn thing about it. They dont know what kind of pain I've felt. They will never know so why I should make them understand?

From now on, please live well. Please live well like the time before I came to your world. Please live well like how you used to be.

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Sometime, when this world against you, give you an endless pain and burn up your bone, you just have to learn to give up.

Give up perhaps could be a cruel yet right thing you have to do. Yes, I give up because I dont wanna get hurt anymore. Yes, I give up because I'm busy to protect my own self. And yes, I give up because....... I get nothing less for you.

I'm pitiful, not strong and tough enough for taking care this problem.

That's why I'd chosen to hurt myself by leave, by give up. I'm hurt, but time will heal it.

"I'm sorry..." is my the only thing I can say to you. I'm sorry.