Jealousy? Anger? Both?
Songs I listened to while writing this:
B1A4 - Rain Falling in Myeongdong
Super Junior M - Perfection [Korean]
It's alright to be jealous, right? I mean, I don't know what I'm jealous of necessarily, but I think that I am.
But I have nothing to be jealous of...
The European girl that I talked about before, she keeps invading on every single conversation that Puppy and I have together and frankly, it's starting to get annoying. Wouldn't you get annoyed if someone kept butting into every single conversation that they weren't a part of?
I don't know if she likes Puppy because she's one of the biggest flirt, or rather, the biggest flirt in our hallway, and probably in the ELC. I mean, okay there are some other girls that are kind of like on the borderline and whatnot, but they at least don't go after every single guy that they see.
...And this girl is one to say that she doesn't want a serious relationship...
It's the girl that is the one who is flirting with everyone and making everyone believe that she's interested in them. She's probably said no to about like three guys and I don't know if she's going after Puppy or not. I don't care if they're friends, having friends is good, but like... stop butting into all of my conversations with him.
Take today for instance.
Puppy and I were done with math and I was going to go to the dining hall while Puppy said that he was going to go back to the dorms. We were walking along and he was telling me a story about his physics professor, in one of his many accents. I already knew that the European girl and the other girl that annoys me, both of who I previously write about in my blog posts, were going to the dining hall and with Puppy not going with me, I wasn't planning on sitting with them. Rather, I would sit by myself and perhaps get some more chapters written or something.
Anyway, so we were walking and apparently Puppy didn't notice that we were at the dining hall until we were in front of the doors.
"What are we doing here?" he asked as he looked at the place.
"I was coming here. You just followed me," I told him. "You can go back, though, I don't care."
"Nah," Puppy said shaking his head. "That requires momentum, like we learned about in physics, but I currently have none."
So Puppy and I went into the dining hall and while I was getting some food, I heard Puppy telling the joke behind me, so I turned around and saw the European girl there.
"Not the joke again," I said as I turned around and the both of us laid eyes on each other.
"Oh," she said as she looked at me, "you're here with ------?" Since I don't have a nickname, I guess I'll just put in dashes for my name, haha.
And I mean, I have no problem with her saying that, since she probably didn't notice me, but just the tone of her voice had me kind of like...I don't know. I was just like really? She really said that? It was kind of like she didn't like the fact that I was with him. Honestly, I spend more time with him than she does, so is she just jealous because of me?
I don't necessarily think that I'm jealous of her, though. I just think I'm angry at how she butts into every conversation that the two of us attempt to have together. And it's been happening a lot really recently ... and it just gets on my nerves.
But, in other news, Puppy and I ... we're doing fine. There's really nothing that's different between the two of us or anything, but I kind of think that he's nicer to me nowadays.
Like tonight, there was a basketball game, and he's in the pep band, which I would've joined, but there was an audition and I don't like playing by myself in front of people, but anyway, we walked back together with the nameless neighbor and as we were going up the stairs, he held the door open for me, but then he didn't hold it open for the nameless neighbor, to which she pointed out and he simply shrugged his shoulders.
A week or two ago there was also the incident about how he was talking with some other girl, who is in one of his other classes I'm assuming, and then I walked in. Because of the way that the classroom is set up, like all of the desks and seats are connected in rows somehow, he had to get up from the seat to let me get in. Once I sat down, I wouldn't have cared if he continued his conversation with the girl, but instead he turned and talked to me.
I don't know... It just seems like he's nicer to me than before, not that he wasn't nice before, but it kind of seems like he just goes out of his way a little bit to do nice things to me and I appreciate it.
His birthday is in like a month, his twenty-first birthday and I think I know what I'll get him, if he wants a birthday gift.
I think I'll get him Fruit Gushers, do you guys know what that is? Those things that you eat that were always on television growing up, and I guess the commercials are still on television. Well he had those for the first time here and when he came into my room to do math together, he immediately asked for them. I guess he likes them and I was thinking about possibly getting those, but I have no idea. I guess we'll just have to see. Do you think I should get him something for his birthday anyway?
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