I dont really know why but I suddenly felt like reading again your posts on your AFF blog... not that many... but all about me... When I first read it, to be honest, it hurt... knowing you were feeling all this because of me... I never wanted that... so Im sorry... I never wanted to hurt you, I swear. But I did...

I know I cant erase your past scars... but at least i hope, sincerily, that i'll never hurt you like this again. No matter what, I'll try my best to make you happy. I'll make sure you dont have to do fake smiles anymore. cause to me, your smile is the most beautiful and it makes my heart beats faster...

We talked about it already, and it kinda sounds like a joke, right? buddy love... it makes me smile from ear to ear. but it really meant a lot to me, and I know it does to you too. its like if... since we gave a name to our relationship, it became even more intense. and its a bit scary, I wont lie about it.

The way I miss you all the time.

The way I feel sad and down when you're not here. I feel so alone... as if nothing matter anymore... except you...

You and your smile that light up my day... you and your sweetness... you and your love that warm up my whole body... you and your stupid jokes that makes me laugh like a crazy... you and your hugs... you, simply you.

I've never been addicted like this to someone's presence before, thats why I said its a bit scary to me... but geez, you cant imagine how much I love this feeling. 

When I said you are my star and that I want  you by my side forever, i was serious. I just hope you know about it...