First, one advice from my mom is that "do not let yourself get all stressed".. Few minutes ago, I experienced something that I don't expect it will come soon... Crying in front of my parents is nowhere in my mind but I just can't hold it. Mom told me that I had raised my voice to my grandparents this morning. It's not that I want to raise my voice but I was anxious that time.. I didn't mean to.. I was busy about the things I need to do that morning but everything went wrong so I had to clear things out at that exact moment before it's too late. I was waiting for my cousin to pick up her phone and I dialed her number thrice. My elder brother was talking at the same time with my grandparents and I get all stressed due to the loud voices. I don't know but this year, I get all anxious easily and sometimes make me mad. For a moment, all I can think of that time was all about the things I need to do. Time is golden so I rush upstairs and just get ready before it's too late. But don't get me wrong.. I regret for doing such actions in front of my grandparents cause I know they'll misunderstood so I once I got home after 3 hours later, I walk in and greet my grandparents but my grandmother talk less than before. So I think my grandparents talked to my mother about my actions. Just now, mom asked me why I was so angry at my grandparents and all I can say is that I didn't mean to. I was stressed due to all the loud voices and I get more stressed when grandmother acted that way to me. So, I tried to hold back my tears but I burst out crying when mom said "you didn't know... But we are much stressed. Especially your grandmother" Mom then said that she cried many times without us knowing. She cried in her room and she also cried in the bathroom.why? Cause she's shocked that her children sometimes raised their voices to her. And my grandmother.. She has no maid and had to do all the work. Sometimes I would help if I have free time but most of the time, they would just take naps... But never did I know that my grandfather scolded her many times. I thought it was the other way around. The image of her being scolded, do what my grandfather needs (he can't walk much and always feel pain on both his feet) and do her daily work.. I realized that I was not that stressed if I compared myself to her. And when she sees her grandchildren acting rude or so, she would feel hurt but just kept silent. So my mom said to me " don't let yourself get stressed. Stress is just what the 'syaitan' would love to see. Prevent it by drinking water, 'istighfar' , pray or 'dzikir' . It'll calm you down.." She then walked out and gave me a glass of water. Now I know that I should try to make myself calm from now and forget about bad things. Most importantly: prevent stress , think more about people even if you did cause you'll never know that what they are facing when you are not looking. I hope you guys will realize all this and try to be a good child for them. Though they say they hate you, t hey didn't mean to. It's just the pressure they are having. Don't take all the words to the heart and try to understand. They love you no matter what and they forgive you immediately right after a minute of being hurt. Parents are still parents. Their love, care and thoughts will never change. So don't disappoint them and please beg for forgiveness if you can. Thank you for reading