I've been writing fanfics since 2011. I started writing about pwp, then romantic s, then fluffs. I've learned but I don't really think I've improve. I've learned to make plots involving genres that I didn't mention earlier, yes, but I'm not sure if my stories had depth. When I'm reading other authors' stories that are epic and awesome, (not only here on aff, but also on lj and ff.net). I feel horrible for myself, for my works. I feel like what I write are trash. Stories that are quite forgetable. Yes, I've satisfied myself by writing this and that, but there's still this feeling that something is lacking. So I always end up not finishing or checking those authors' new fics because I'm insecure. I'm scared to admit to myself that my best might not be good enough if I compare my stories to theirs. I'm scared that the word "failure" will always be there, following me as I drive. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's like this.