I can’t help myself

To envy those people who receives roses and chocolates

To be greeted on that day

To be hugged with love and sincere

To have those sweet moments

To burst out all this heavy feelings I kept inside

To have bad vibes all day long

I want to smile!!! I want to scream!!! I want to laugh!!! I just want to let go all this bitterness

But.....

I can’t stop these tears continuously falling from my eyes.....

And the air, it’s choking me.

I feel so down

All day long I was so upset

I’m so childish to be like this I just hate it........

I can’t help myself

To be bitter on

Valentine’s day

There are some reasons why am I so bitter.....

First is that no one doesn't like me...whether it's a friend or a lover

No one greets me a valentine's day not even my frriends or family.....



I greet them but they never greet back at what hurts the most is that after I greet them and then they greet others, forgetting about me...... I'm  a very jealous person.....


and the worst part.... they only greet me a happy valentine's day out of pity.....

I'm tired expecting every year that my valentine's day won't make me lock myslef and cry out everything to my pillow......... I guess I am not meant to be happy on Valentine's day. =_=