i though this one year relationship breakup is less painful as i was before in two year relationship ... luckily i not do the stupid thing anymore .. i thanks myself for endures the pain although we human have limit of patience too.. i'm glad i'm not cut wrist anymore , not live aimlessly  maybe the past give me strength and to learns the lesson . first day of breakup still crying ..still remisnicing the sweet bitter we have .. day two have fever ..maybe too much shock and sad ..

day three .. fever subsided ..  

day 4 .. i can accept the reality ..but not crying anymore ..  the heavy like stone feeling in heart felt relieved .. maybe i should take a walk or maybe just sleep .. i'm thankful for not relying on medicine anymore ..  

tomorrow . i promise a better me .. hwaiting ,gambatte !