maybe it was because I was feeling quite frustrated from drama, or tired from work, or maybe I was jst feeling sentimental and nostalgic .

but today I called up a best friend of mine I rarely talk too, but I had missed him for months. We rarely hung out in the last three years, casual meetings every few months or so.

when I first found out we were going to different high schools, I was completely dejected.

he was probably one of my first best friends.

he was the one who made me laugh when I was stressed, bought me ice cream just to spoil me( even though he's younger), neglected school work every week just to sneak over and have chats and watch kpop together even when we spazzed about different groups, slept over and hugged me till I fell asleep when I was left alone in my house when my dad would up and leave for nights on ends, ate my cooking even if It wasn't the best, he was there to hold my hand during haunted houses and scary attractions and agreed to fall behind the group because I'm a big baby and can't handle silly costumes, there when i had heartbreaks and stuffed his face full if sweets with me so i didnt feel like i was the only one on an emotional rollercoster, there to encourage me even if my dad never approved of my thoughts or goals, and he was there to hold my hand last year when my mother passed- most of all, he was just there for everything.

he knew every single secret of mine because he was there for most of them and mostly because I trust him with every detail.

he saw me at my worst and still was there to push through anything with me and I never truly realized how much I depended on him till after we went to seperate schools.

so I called him up, told him I missed him and he said the same and we spent over an hour reminiscing( and an hour is along time for me because I don't normally talk or text since I'm more of a face-to-face conversation.)

He's the type to not judge me, finish my sentences, and knows just what to say.

so after the hour long talk, we decided to hangout more because we just miss each other and how easily we were comfortable each other.

and then I realized that he's just too important to keep things how they are now.

So, it took me today- when everything just seems to go downhill- to remind me how much I need him, how much of a friend he really was.

so, I guess I'm writing this to say to others, if you have a friend like this. Don't let them go.

even if it seems impossible because of distance or distractions, fight for it because friends like that are hard to find and I know that from experience. I've traveled to so many places and I've never met someone quite like him.

if you have a relationship with someone that's precious, friendship or romantic, fight for it. 

Me and him have a strong friendship bond and over the last seven years, I saw it slipping away.

so, after all that's happened lately, I decided that I'm not going to just sit here and wait till the friendship we once had disappears into thin air.

because he's far too important for that.

I've let many people go, family and friends, without much difficulty.

so, what I guess I'm trying to emphasize is that friendship, real friendships, is hard and rare to find.

so when you do find it, hold on to it.

so I can honestly say, I'm in a better mood, a better one than I have been in months.

and it's all thanks to him.

And I can't help but think of that cheesy poem: "friends are like stars, they come and they go, but the ones that stay are the ones that glow."

he stayed; he glows; he's my best friend.