I remember making this group with alex.. back then we love to fangirl over each other so we named ourselves the osms. I love every osms. Im so proud of you guys. Im the osms number one fan. I try everything to make u all feel appreciated because you're all great and wonderful people.. and im just so glad to call you my friends. Idk what am i doing wrong.. what and why its not enough? Am i not sincere or what? Ahhhh idk........ -SAE at 2:37am, Feb 1, 2013 To a very special someone within the group of OSM who recently became a group of 11, to you, shame on YOU. im stuck here with limited internet coverage for the last two weeks having my most deserved vacation after four years of work, work, work and more emotional and psychological torture my family inflicted me but why do YOU have to ruin everything??? Why do U have to be an emotional hoe everytime? You were there when we all tried to overcome the pressure of our previous fandom. You were there when we found ourselves/our muse again through EXO's debut. The least we all expect is for u to understand what we all went through. You were there when we formed this group. We used to only care about spazzing, to someone to relate to each other. You were there with us. SAE - an ELF, has one of the greatest manips, now an admin of KSF in tumblr. ULI - an ELF, A kyuna fan, a friggin great writer, now still a great writer. MYA - an ELF, this person doesnt write or do anything online except being the wondeful source of reblogs in tumblr AND has always been this group cheerleader for always cheering every each of us DEE (me) - an ELF, was as MONSHIE but now DEEMUSED... you know the rest. E- an ELF, doesnt write but helps a lot around the group with beta ing and fic rec-ing. CIARA- an ELF, has loved joonmyeon nd kyu. Had wrote beautiful stuffs even being new to writing scene. ALEX- whom we met here in AFF we dont know before we joined EXO fandom. Yes that young woman who wrote CATCHING BYUN BAEKHYUN. Our magnae. and u, ZHee- one person i knew of as an sj writer from LJ. DIDNT WE FIRST MADE THIS GROUP together with eight of us oogling over new group EXO? OFC we added another two people Joonie (Uli's younger sister who i so adored way before exo era) and Nad (purplepluto) because we all adored her too) not because we all needed to replace a person in tje group. It was so we can get closer to each other. Okay, zhee, im upfront talking to u now. OSM is not a group who asks for constant messaging and stuffs because y??? Each of us were as busy as s. You might think sae, e, mya and I were ganging with each other cox u thought we communicate with each other alot. No, honey. We only communicate when we CAN. The beauty in our close friendship is we dont ask time with each other. We understand if one cannot talk to us and when they come back, we simply pick things up where we left off. We dont go drama on each other asking where they went or why they didnt talk to us lately. We just dismiss the time we dont interact and just value the time we do. For example, uli do not talk to us more lately but do we really grudge her for that? No, zhee. We understood because man, shes working, she's busy and all other stuffs. Joonie is busy at school and so is MYA. E started working. nad has diff time format too and school is taking most of her time. And ciara is busy working too. And ofc our maknae ALEX who is still trying to cope up with her health. Zhee, this aint about who we talked/spent time together. Its the way u handle urself. The unnies aint superwomen nor oracles to guess what u might be feeling every moment. Didnt we tell u if theres something bothering u u just have to tell us??? Didnt we tell u that we dont need another person emoing over who gets more attention within the group. We dont need someone asking too much of our attention because we dont have that luxury. Seriously zhee, we are all emotional wrecks. Having to bluntly accussed us that by adding this wonderful person to the group means replacing u. Zhee, thats ennretarted. I dun en curse about you or anyone but come on dont make me say things u dun really want me sayng. Replacing u? Truthfully we could do just that WAAAAAY before zhee. But we didnt becausr we value the times u stood with us for the whole year even halfway of that u kept on giving us the eye/the impression that u are putting urself down compared to all of us. Zhee it aint about what u can do. Fine other mem of this grouo has BIGGER NAMES, BIGGER ACCOMPLISHMENTS. Take purplepluto and kailove (whatsbur number again bb alex xD) but pls its all about the interaction u have within the group. Look E and mya and joonie all dont write hugeass fics (they dun really write in the first place) but coz of constant communication they put effort on, they still here happily talking within the group. And zhee twitter aint the tool to communicate anymore. Twitter has been long abandoned when ELF fandom become a muse-ruiner for me. I still support SJ BTW. WE only get to talk through kakaotalk and its not that CONSTANT fyi.what im trying ti say is, DONT RUIN IT. stop with ur inferiority complex bout thinking we replace u with someone better as u said becayse thats not happening. But if u insist dear, we might as well do as that. We might as well KICK OUT people who contribute less to the group. Thats better right? Its just a shame if alex returns to only to find her OSM group she formed with us decreases in numbe because you just have to be such an insecure lil woman and ruin everything. And oh, the last time i talked to SAE, she is actually considering TAKING DOWN the group. Oh hey WAY TO GO. a year of friendship turns down the drain. If im being cruel now, thats the result of having to put up with u and inah for too long now. I dun need more inah-like person in the group. -way to spend my one hour typing this s on my fone at 3am.