Do you understand how painful to see the one you love happy with somebody else? The jealously for absolutely for no reason. Just getting jealous when they talk to their friends and you feel like they forgot you completely? To over think for no reason? To have your heart be in pain and your body to start physically get in pain? To just pretend everything is alright when your down right heartbroken and just crying more and more? Pain is just horrid. Never calling that person like you used to? To wish so bad someone else can take your heart away? Wishing for one wish and for it never have this happen? Not to fall in love and cry for the stupidest reason. Wow I sound like those Facebook girls, but I happened to fall in love with same gender. Always thinking about dirty relating to that person? I never knew love can be this painful, as bad as you wanting to kill yourself over something so trivial yet painful in reality. Reality, I hate reality. I want to escape from it and never wake up. I want it to be a sweet love and just plain old fluffy. I simply don't understand this and can't stop crying mentally and having to fake smile. No longer having that sincere smile anymore whilst  getting mad at that person for no reason, when deep down the reason is for not being with you. I not myself anymore. I just can't be me anymore.