I can't see the future...I can't see my past...

I blurred it all out but no one knew..

I can't feel my soul but I want to live..

I want my to make my family happy.. but that's even hard for me to believe..

I don't want to cry...what's the point in that..

Solitude is my only way of escape because it's too late to turn back..

I ruined my life...but who could i tell..

Everyday I wake up I feel my heart is still locked up in its cell..

I'm scared my fear is too strong..

I want to disappear..but I still try hard to belong..

Mom and Dad..I love you so much..

I want to help out so much...but even your touch fills me with regrets..

Your sad disappointed eyes makes me want to crawl into a hole..

You think I don't see..the painful tears you held back when you look at me..

You try hard to smile when you're with me...but when you turn away I feel like dying inside..

I sit quietly when no one is around...my mind crying...my heart crying...but all I did was sit and do nothing..

No tears in my eyes...nothing...

Head throbbing ....I really feel like dying..

But I just kept living feeling like my soul had already left me..