'fear
I know that this life ain't made for forever. No one has ever tasted immortality. And yet, I'm afraid to die. Blame it on my age or on my own beliefs, but 'm scared. I'm so scared, that I don't think I'll go take those brain tests they said I need to have...
The thing is -- maybe just a childish fear of mine, a nightmare to the core actually -- that I have terrible headaches. Like, half of my head, always the left one, hurts like hell all of a sudden! At first, it's like a dagger being ed into my skull, hitting the brain. And then it stransforms itself into a claw that drags the pain all over the left half of my head, making me curl under the blankets. I don't know what it is that causes it... All I know is that it ain't normal to hurt like that.
And today I went to the doctor. And he gave me this note, sending me to the hospital to have some tests in the near future. And sincerely, I'm afraid. Whenever my best friend would sent me to the hospital, I'd answer "Why? To tell me that ve got two more weeks to live? No thanks!". But right now, it scares the out of me that huge IF... what if they really tell me I've got that little to leave? What would I do? What will come of my dreams, those big dreams I still have and hold dear, trying my best to make them come true? What will come of my dream of marrying Seung Ho one day or at least meet him and tell him that his music, their music was the best thing I found in my whole life?
What will become of me? My stories? My family? My mother?
Fear took over me, guys TT.TT All I can do right now is curl up in my bed and hope there's nothing wrong with me...
Alright! I'll shake off everything and be the bright Kat once again! Hella~~ *giggles*
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