Thinking of the past, I was such a joyous person but I wasn't accepted by kids my age for some reason. I remember being in Elementary school where I tried being friends with people but they wouldn't like me for who I was. They made fun of me, one of my classmate in my fourth grade said no one liked me. Then I just grew awkward from there on. I was lonely since my fifth and sixth grade year. Seventh grade came and I went to middle school. I couldn't talk to people because I wasn't used to people anymore. Though I made friends at the new school I got in, I was still lonely even if I was with them. My high school year... I found new friends of the same interests. My life started to change. I made friends that were going to last forever... well at least I thought so. One of my closest friend moved in sophomore year. My other friend blocked me on FB because we didn't spend much time with her. The other? I fell extra hard for her but she dated my cousin. I hated them for a while but I forgave my cousin. I couldn't forgive her because I lost my other friend that always cheered me and whatever. My life twisted back to the elementary days. All my spazzes of groups and such just... died down. The person I once was... died. The happy person I was once was died. Tell me... what did I do wrong? You know, I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for myself. I feel so much stress and frustration I don't know where to vent it out.  

The only thing that I live for now... is really just for my family. Who else can I live for huh? lol, is it okay if I say I also live for Kara? I feel like that's how I'm gonna live life anyways. 

I'm sorry guys. It's just cause of all these past events and of my crushed dreams that made me like this for today. I'm sure I'll be okay after this. :)