A lot of people like me because they say I'm bubbly, friendly, and energetic. They say they like the way I act around other people: so carefree in a way that coud be appreciated by others. They like it when I can easily entertain even strangers, how friendly I act around newly-met individuals. They love it when I make hard-to-understand conversations seem lighter to the listener's ear. For them, I'm an all-round good sport.

But, they're wrong...completely wrong.

I am far from the person they are actually seeing; far from the innocent, bubbly girl they're spending time with.

Nobody knows the real me, nobody has any idea who I really am.

I don't even know exactly who I am, either. All I know is, deep inside, I am not the person I used to be. What you see is not what you get.

In real life, I laugh and brush off insults and negative comments but, online, I rant deeply, pouring my frustrations out...

I smile at every boastful words I receive in real life, and curse at it online...

Smiles overwhelm me at home as we all exclaim 'Good night' but tears soak my pillow and bed sheets every night at my dormitory...

I have a million accounts over the internet and just tend to forget about them, just like I forgot my previous password...

I do this so I can continue on ranting and still not care about the ones who read my posts...

I know a lot of people judge me everywhere but I don't care...they don't really know who I am so their comments might not care after all...

In my opinion, I am just [as I always say] a crazy messed-up girl with a crazier messed-up life with crazy friends that make my messed-up life better and more tolerable...

See? I'm actually ranting right now...Honestly, I don't know what I'm typing anymore so, to all who can read this, bear with me...even though you couldn't really understans how I feel right now, it's alright...just don't judge me because, remember...

YOU DON'T KNOW WHO I REALLY AM...