everything is not okay 

everything is not alright

you all might see me smiling

thats how hard I have been trying

Try not to see you

Try not to feel you

but it fails terribly

the emotion lingers wildly

I hate it when I cant get angry at you

It would do me good to make you feel guilty 

A single kiss and a touch happens

then everything crumbles down hastily 

My defense is broken

no matter how hard i built it up

Too bad Im now weakened 

So sad, so stupid, so patheticly messed up

I wish i could just forget

how long will i have to suffer

seeing you with someone else

the pain is close to torture