Songs listened to while writing this:

Infinite - Nothing's Over [Live]

Golf and Mike - จะไปส่งให้ถึงมือ

Kenny Kwan -  分手不要太悲哀 (Don't Be Sad For Parting)

Super Junior - You and I [Live]

Super Junior - M - Super Girl [Korean Version]

SE7EN - Better Together [Live]

Yamaa Tomohisa - MOLA

Big Bang - Lady

NEWS - Share

Show Luo - 舞法舞天 (Dance Without Limits)

Teen Top - Whereas

Ninomiya Kazunari - Konseki

SS501 - Youngstreet Logo Song

SS501 - All My Love

NU'EST - I'm Sorry

SS501 - Bye Bye

Seo Inguk - 애기야 (My Baby U)

Wow. So I'm writing two days in a row... that is quite something, but I guess I'll be updating more frequently and we'll just see where that takes us. Who knows, one day I just might suddenly run out of things to say about my life and might not update for a while. But, that's not this current moment, I have a lot of figuring things out to do right now and what else I should do. So... that's where this blog post takes us.

Today wasn't that bad of a day, classes wise. I got done at noon and only had two classes. Next week I have a lab so I'll have three classes, but I'll still end at noon, so that's always a plus. I didn't have any classes with Puppy today, I have a class with him tomorrow, it's math class. So, there's always that.

However, while my nameless neighbor and I, who I have decided she will be called the nameless neighbor because I cannot think of another nickname for her that would suit her like how Puppy suits him and even though she's not really my next door neighbor but an across the hall neighbor still, though, it could mean the same thing, but moving on. So while my nameless neighbor and I were walking to the dining hall, we just so happened to pass by Puppy who was coming back from his fencing practice and we managed to convince him to come with us.

Originally he wasn't going to come at all and originally I wasn't going to go to the dining hall and the nameless neighbor was going to go with someone else, but because of circumstances, the namless neighbor and I somehow went to the dining hall together and saw him on the way and convinced him to go. He was spraying water on us the entire time from his water bottle and said that it's holy water, but that's just the type of guy he is.

And then we went to the dining hall and just ate together. It's not the first time that we've done it. I've eaten with the nameless neighbor and Puppy and I've even eaten with just Puppy alone before after one of our late classes that we had together during the last term that we actually have together this term, surprisingly. So who knows, maybe we'll end up eating dinner together again. And I've also stopped by when I saw him there with his roommate one morning, which was the incident, not really, of where he put his head on my shoulder.

But I didn't find it awkward at all, although the nameless neighbor found Puppy being awkward sometimes, but he was just doing his usual, like telling anti-jokes and just attempting to be funny and weird all at the same time and somehow, it suits him, believe it or not. 

It's not awkward at all when it's just us, because at one point the nameless neighbor went to go get other food that she thought would be better than the one that she got originally, so it was only Puppy and me sitting there. He told me some more jokes and just acted like he always would around me. Nothing seemed different at all.

When the nameless neighbor came back, the two joked around together a lot, well with me included, but the nameless neighbor would say a lot of things and then Puppy would always respond with "Your mom."

Now going back to the conversation from yesterday, we always have those jokes where we both say that we don't know about our parents and I wasn't going to say any of that, especially in front of the nameless neighbor who does know about him being adopted but who just pretends like she doesn't because I'm pretty sure that that wasn't information that was supposed to like, just slip out of my mouth. 

And jumping back to the conversation today, whenever Puppy made a statement like that, it was like he was pleading with me in his eyes to not say anything. I wouldn't have said anything, and I didn't, but the look in his eyes... I don't even know how to explain such a thing. It just looked like he was hurting. What else can I say? It just looked like he was hurting from something that's still unidentifiable to me, but his eyes looked like they were pleading with me to not say anything about him being adopted... That just makes me wonder what happened to him in the past for him to behave that way...

But after dinner, we walked back to the dorm, still joking around in all of our glory and doing things that we normally do with one another such as tripping one another and attempting to step on each other's shoes and also attempting to tap on the other person's shoulder and make them look the other way. Just the typical things. And I told Puppy that by him doing those things, such as him explaining what he does with his brother to other people sometimes, is why no one ever believes him when he says how old he is. And he is twenty, just in case any of you were curious. I'm pretty sure you wouldn't be able to find out who he is just by a nickname and his age.

Once the nameless neighbor, Puppy, and I got back to the dorm, the nameless neighbor and I went to Puppy's room to bother him for a little bit, something that we frequently do sometimes. And so then he was playing some songs for us, some that he was singing while we were walking back from the dining hall, and others that he just decided to play including the song below.

So in all honesty, the song probably does and means nothing, but he was singing it and it was actually quite nice. Frankly, I didn't know the song before, I just remember him playing it for us before because of this one part that just so happens to be his favorite.

While he was singing it, he kept looking at me sometimes and I'm probably reading too much into it, but... I don't know... It wasn't awkward and it didn't feel weird at all by him singing that song and looking at me. But I'm probably reading too much into it anyway because then he also proceeded to sing, with another song that I can't think of the title or anything for, to a pizza box, an orange, and other inanimate objects. He even kissed the pizza box...but it was so...Puppy-like that the namless neighbor and I weren't phased by it at all.

And... I guess that's it for my wonderful adventure tonight. So, the title of the blog post isn't really relating because tonight wasn't such a wonderful night, but I mean, it was something nice. What can I say? I like spending time with Puppy and I enjoy being comfortable around him and everything. Nothing's really awkward between us and I like it that way. I like having nothing awkward between us, it makes me feel like we're close.

Maybe we are close to each other, but honestly, I'm not a person to call someone my best friend. But maybe one day... one day I'll be able to call someone my best friend. And honestly, a little part of me wants to be able to call Puppy my first best friend. I don't care if we're in a relationship later, I don't care if after this year we don't see each other ever again because of different schedules. I'm just going to enjoy this time that I have with him right now. That's all I want to do.

Just me and Puppy...

How hard am I falling for this guy?