I don't have anyone where I can rant this about so I'm gonna rant my feelings to you guys...

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Sometimes I really feel like I'm nothing

"You are such a burden,why can't you do anything right?,always giving me and your dad headaches"

Last night, I broke the vase that my dad work hard on

and when my mom said those words, It didn't really affect me until...

Today at school, our P.E. is about volleyball this 3rd term

and there was a practical test about it

by doing a dig pass and the ball should be 1 foot above the head for ten times

............and I just can't do it after practicing for 20 minutes

and everyone..............can do better than me...like way better

and I became emotional when I remembered what my mom said last night

because really like what she said I am a burden and..... nothing

I am not really good at academics(esp. math)

Nor sports(I've tried swimming,softball,football,lawn and table tennis,basketball and now volleyball,but I can't do good at any of these sports)

I can't even sing nor play an instrument(my voice shakes whenever I sing)

what more if I do speeches or things like presenting.

and although I like dancing,I am also not really good at it(that's why I quit in the modern dance club)

and I am that bad in acting

and last I am not even.....pretty,nor close to it.

I just don't know why I can't do anything right or anything I am good at

the reason why my tears flowed

because....... I feel useless....

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sorry if i am emotional now,but I just don't have friends whom I can tell this to because I don't want 

them to feel guilty for me since they are good at these things.