So I have this heart breaking love story of myself, I can't share it with my friends because they all know this guy. This guy is my school's head president. I've known him for 6 years and 5 days. 3 years I've known and look from a far, 2 years are for our close friend-relatioship while 1 years and 5 days are our awkward moments.. I've liked him since 6 years ago. I've been close with him. At first, I used him to get a guy jealous but then, the more I spent my time with him, the more I like him. I've confessed to him 2 years and 6 months ago. From then on, our close relationship went awkward and down. I hate that. I told him 'I like him' but he rejected me. I can't contain my feelings. I cried myself to sleep for 5 months. Then, its graduation day for my middle school and here I thought both of us won't meet again. In high school, we met again. In the same class. And my feelings went and open itself again but this time, a big problem arrives. My cousin liked him. He likes my cousin too. And now, they're both are on their way to a serious relationship. I can't help but cry. My cousin who I trusted the most and told her everything about him. He likes her. He likes how cute she is. He likes how funny she is. He likes how beautiful she is and never rejected her. And me? I'm just the dull one. I'm just the ugly one in his eyes. He doesn't like my smile or my laugh. I'm just no one to him anymore. He doesn't like me. But I like him. I think I love him. But I can't do this to my cousin. I can't do it. But what should I do? I love him. I really do. I don't think I deserve him but I can't control my feelings. Help me solve this :'( ?