OMFG OMFG 

WHY!?!?! WHY IS THIS SEPTEMBER SO WROOOOONG??!?!? WHY WERE THEY SO CLOSE AND I JUST COULDN'T ING BUY THAT STUPID TICKET AND FLY TO MOSCOW HUH!?!?!?!? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I can do nothing else than just sit and cry, watching those fancams from airport, Red Square, where they were dancing just a day ago...... How come I missed it? How come all the money I collected for the ticket just was blown by wind?!?! 

IT! SEPTEMBER!! WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG!?!??!?!