I'm Leaving
Hello there, everybody!
Yesterday...*sigh* yesterday was an awful day for me. And the following week will be the Hell on Earth for me. Yesterday, my mom found my grandpa dead on the floor of his house. Yesterday, the police and the ambulance filled my courtyard. Yesterday, I had to see everyone cry. Yesterday, I had to be strong and support my mother. Yesterday, I could only regret the death of my favourite grandparent. He was... the best memory maker of my childhood. He was the best! And yesterday, all I could was regret; that I never told him that he's the best for me, that I never thanked him for the nice things he got me, that I laughed at him... You see, my grandpa was a sinner. He was an alcoholic. Every time he had little money, he would drink them away. But he was all smiles and jokes when he was drunk. He was never violent or anything like that... But you see, I never realized that until yesterday. I found it disgusting... but not anymore. And to think that I saw him not long ago, on Christmas Eve when he came inside (he lived next door from us)... Why? Why didn't I tell him that he was the best? Why was I so stupid?!
And now he's gone. And because he died yesterday and they took his body to legal medicine for further investigations on his death, he will be buried somewhere during the following week. And it's hard for me to know that I will now step inside an empty house or that I will never see him carrying firewood from our courtyard.
So, I'm going to go. I'm leaving AFF and I don't know when I'll be back. Might be at the end of this week or... I don't know really. So, I'm sorry. I wanted to let you guys know about my sudden disappearance.
Sweet fireflies, please let your close ones know that they're indeed special for you before it's not too late. So that you won't come regretting like I am now...
And also, I'll dedicate one of my on-going stories to my grandpa, because his sudden disappearance is like the crash of a whole world for me. Here's to my grandpa!
P.S. And Seung Ho hurt his arm too... Why is God against me this last week of 2012?! TT.TT I feel so... empty... so deserted...
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