It's almost 2013... SHINee will make 5 years in May. How crazy. It's been a long ride. A good one. Somewhat bumpy 2 years ago but still good.

Anyways, its been exactly 2 weeks since I sent my application. Obviously I'm not gonna get a response for a while. That's just normal BUT I'm getting scared.

Things like what if I don't make it in. What will I do with my life then? Will I move to Korea & take my chances?

I've never been one to give up but I could always move to Korea when I'm of age with a degree in 3 years. I'll be more stable & I'd have been to a prestigious school.

Did I ever mention I got invited to Amherst, Pratt, Berkley & NYU. But my heart was set on Incheon College in Korea.

But now I think I might take the offer to Pratt. It's a private school & its in New York.

SHINee always has concerts there ... So, maybe it's better if I just go to college here first? I'd have a scholarship & it'd be easier to find a job.

But a big part of me really wants to move out there now. Like tomorrow if I could.

What do you think I should do if I don't get an acceptance later? Take my chances & go or just go to college in New York?