Unfilled

In the past two years of my life; I have you by my side.

I know how much you care for me.

It seems that it’s endlessly.

But reality speaks and keeps away my fantasy.

I hide the bitterness when you’re whispering her name.

When you’re telling me your love story I smile to hide the pain.

I can see it in your eyes that you love her more than I love you.

You’re with me but she owns your heart and that keeps me blue.

The conversations we have are just little things for you.

But these little things are precious for me like you do.

You don’t know anything about how much I like you.

But still, I am joining the dots of possibility of someday I can have you.

You tell your friends how important I am to you.

I smile and fantasize that you love me too.

On the other side of my smile is a wish.

I want you to fall for me even if they find it selfish.

But I can’t change things that easily.

For I know I will forever live in this fantasy.

You keep on telling me things that makes me giddy.

I find it cute even it puts my life into one that is messy.

Life is unfair so as love.

The fairytale I know before is now gone and has jumped.

For the prince I want falls for the other woman.

And I am here feeling so unfilled and unloved by my dream king.

-queency

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i miss this guy ><