Hello everyone, I'm here again..

Actually, I'm not feeling good.. My brother and I fought again >.< And it annoys me alot..

Sorry, maybe this post will be long and dramatic..

Prior to that, my older brother and I not really get along that well.. I mean seriously, he's too immature. Like when there's only a small thing, he will make it big deal.. Like hello? You're older than I am, but you're fighting about small things..

I just can't.. I know this is bad, but really, sometimes I wish he wasn't my brother..

There this one time, when he's still on highschool then his friend visited in our house.. then, we were watching TV and I was asking my brother about what was that thing called on the TV because I just want to have conversation with him. And he go saying that I'm brainless to identify that thing while his friend where still there. I mean, if you're really concern for a person you wouldn't humiliate that person infront of others, right? And I somehow feel something hurt inside my chest when he said that.. You can really hurt people by your words even though you're not really hurting her physically..

Then another incident, that we were just alone and my sister wasn't there(actually, they get along well). Then sometimes, when only two of us were there without my sister, we wouldn't really talk that much. Then he was asking something on me, then I don't understand what he was saying. Then he said, "That's why I don't want to talk to you, you're nonsense." (that's not the exact words but what he was pointing out is like that)

Then another thing, when I'm about to go to a university to submit requirements for college. Then there's one phrase he said, questioning if I can really enter that university. It's not the exact words but he was pointing out if I can really pass it. There's something on the tone of his voice that says that he's underestimate me. It's clear that he's underestimate me by his question. 

Another thing happen when my mother and I bought a cheese spread that cost expensive. Then, when I got home, my sister and my brother were excited by this cheese spread(it's our favorite actually). Then they go eating big amount of it, I mean they're consuming it. Then I said that don't consume that much because it's expensive. Then, he go saying something which was kinda rude. He said that, "It's yours blah blah.." I can't really express what he said but for me, it's completely rude. I was just concern on how it cost then there's his immature side showing again. He didn't even think that I was just concern about it's amount. 

There another thing(but it's not about my brother but it's my sister this time). My sister said just last week that my level of thinking is too low. I'm older than her but she have guts to say it to me. I mean, I have more experience than her but she was acting like that. I mean, she always saying that she's mature already. I mean, that's true she's mature on how the way she acts but her thinking is immature. And one more thing, she always acts rude to me. She likes to boss alot even just a small thing. 

Then I have a cousin who lives in our house. Then we get along and sometimes and I'm comfortable to joke around with him. I just wish he was my older brother more than my real older brother.

I know I'm too emotional but they always underestimate and it pisses me off. I just want to express it since I can't really say it to others. I know this is a bad thing, but sometimes I just wish my sibling weren't them. They're all just the same, immature and rude. I mean it's not really bad if you act immature, I admit I act immature too.  But it's another thing if your thinking is immature if you're that old enough already. Sometimes I do envy on other siblings getting along so well. 

Sorry for the emo post but I just want to express it..