Why Didn't I Do It? OTL

I think today's emo day for me.

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WHY?

Why did I not do it?

/slaps self

OK, so today when I was at lunch, the guy that I like (aka my crush) sat next to me. On his other side was a broken seat but on the other side of the broken seat was this girl I've been seeing him talk to a lot. So I'm a lot closer to him than that girl.

But he doesn't talk to me, oh no, he doesn't even look at me ONCE. I'm staring at him while quietly eating my broccoli and other foods. I'm pretty sure he knows I like him. My friends are on the other side of me, ignoring me as usual. So...I just keep on eating quietly and staring. Now that I think about it, why didn't I talk to him?!? Why didn't he talk to me?-_- I think he has a thing for blondes. Maybe I should dye my hair blonde. LOL Why am I so stupid? ARGH.

HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU NOT SEE SOMEONE STARING AT YOU? DFKJDGIEGHIWHOIFEOFTEG /sobs/JIGEHJGWGFOIEWJFOE

WHY AM I SUCH AN IDIOT?

That's it, I'm going to get my courage to talk to him tomorrow! I hope!