I haven't been active in aff these past months... I miss all the folks here... I don't know how this feeling all started but i just find myself again feeling empty and unloved. I want to dwell on positive thoughts yet the inner me doesn't know when to stop bugging me...telling me how worthless person i am. I just met my bestfriend hours ago after some time of not seeing each other...but why am i feeling that she became distant? i don't know why i am even making a big fuss about this...

 I'd felt the belongingness i hadn't find from others not until she came to my life. But after what happened i really don't know what to do. The loneliness is really killing me right now. I have to let out this disturbing thoughts before I can do things that I'll surely regret forever... :( i'm so fcked up...T_T