Hey everyone! 

OK, listen. I know that I'm writing a dark story right now about a girl who cuts, is , etc. BUT, I don't mean to actually be promoting that. 

That's the LAST thing I want to be doing. With this story, I just hope I'm raising awareness of the people that DO cut, burn, self harm in any way, or maybe are being hurt as well. 

I also want to let all of you know that I'm here for you if you ever need me. Arasso? This is a kpop FAMILY and I love you all. Inbox me, write on my wall, ask for my Kik, my Kakao, my Twitter, my email. Just know that I'm here and I'll listen. You might hear that a lot from people. That they'll listen. I know, trust me, I do. But I do want to be there for you, just like how I hope you would be there for anyone else that needs you. 

I want to show you something that's written in my language, and then I'll translate it, :

Želiš se ubiti?
Zamisli ovo:
-Dođeš iz škole jedan dan kući... Imala si još jedan grozan dan u školi... Spremna si odustati od svega... Odeš usvoju sobu i zatvoriš vrata, izvadiš oproštajno pismo koje si prepravila već hiljadu puta. Izvadiš žilet i režeš se posljednji put. Uzmeš tablete i sve ih staviš u usta. Progutaš ih. Ležiš na krevetu, držeći pismo na svojim grudima. Zatvaraš oči po zadnji put u svome životu. Nakon nekoliko sati, mlađi brat te zove na večeru. Ne javljaš mu se, pa odluči doći u tvoju sobu. Sve što on vidi si ti kako spavaš na svome krevetu. Kaže mami što je vidio. Mama dolazi da te probudi. Primjećuje da nešto nije u redu, ne budiš se. Uzme papir koji je na tvojim grudima i čita ga. Trese se, pokušava da te probudi. Vrišti tvoje ime. Mali brat siđe dole i kaže tati : ''Mama vrišti, a seka ne želi da se probudi.'' Tvoj tata otrči u tvoju sobu i vidi mamu kako drži oproštajno pismo. Ne zna što se događa. baci nešto u zid i poč

Translation:

You wish to kill yourself?

Imagine this:

-You come home one day from school...You've had another horrible day...You're ready to just give up everything...You go to your room and shut the door, you pull out your suicide letter that you've prepared a thousand times already. You take out the razor and cut yourself for the last time. You take the pills and put them in your mouth. You swallow them. You lay on the bed, holding the letter to your chest. You close your eyes for the last time in your life. After a few hours, your little brother comes to call you down for dinner. You're not answering him, so he comes into your room. All that he sees is you sleeping on your bed. He tells his mom what he saw. Mom comes to wake you up. She notices that something is not right, you're not waking up. She takes the paper that was on your chest and reads it. She's shaking and tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your little brother goes downstairs and tells dad: 

"Mom's screaming, and sis doesn't want to wake up." Your dad runs to your room and sees how mom is holding your letter. He doesn't know what's going on. She throws something against the wall and begins to scream. Then falls to her knees and begins to cry. Mama crawls to dad and hugs him. They're crying. The next day at school, there's news of your suicide. A second passes after the notice. Everyone blames themselves. The teachers think that they've been mean to you. The popular kids think about what they've been saying to you. The guy, who always used to tease you, can't help you anymore. He can only hate himself because he had never told you how pretty he thought you were. Your ex, the one you told everything, the one that broke up with you...blames himself, because they could've helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She's in shock. She can't believe about what has happened. She knew what you were going through, but she didn't know it was so bad. She can't cry, she feels nothing. She stands, leaves the classroom, and goes to the bathroom, visibly shaking. She screams, but doesn't cry. She simply just can't. A few days later, it's your funeral. The whole town comes. Your little brother doesn't know what's going on; he only knows that he's lost a sister. 

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This just hit home today. I don't know why. I was going to go put up the next chapter, and then saw this.

Remember, I'm here for you all, ok?

I can't stand bullying, and I hope none of you go through anything like this. 

If you need ANYTHING, just ask. 

<3

& SMILE SMILE SMILE 

It's a beautiful day! 

Saranghaeyo, my sunshine! ^w^