I don't understand why I'm so heartbroken still. We were never a couple...hell you don't even know I exist! Each time I see you with her or a picture of you next to a picture of her or even when my iPod decides to hate me and puts her song after yours (or vice versa)...it all just hurts. It's just a part of this sad reality of mine that you really can't be mine. I don't know what made me think we would be together (I guess I'm too much a dreamer). I never even knew how bad my feelings were for you until that day that you said that you were with her. To this day, my feelings still remain. I don't know if they will change...

I don't know...

Ugh! And I just feel so stupid for feeling this way! I keep having to tell myself we aren't together...we aren't together. Those are byfar the hardest words for me to utter. And for what? It's not like you'll ever hear them...it's not like you'll ever see me, ever notice me...

It's not like you will ever know my feelings for you...

It's not like you'll ever love me anyway...

Someone like you couldn't love me anyway...I'm 10 shades darker than you, I'm not Asian, my hair is short, and curly, and I live halfway across the world.

. This really .___.