December 9, 2012;

        I, Zoie, broke up with my first and last love, Edmund. I fell in love with him past three years. We were so young. But I, shamelessly, fell in love with him. I never thought he would have the same feelings toward me until he confessed me on my birthday. But though I thought he was kidding. I only realised three months ago.

        He was my best friend since childhood. Whenever I needed him, he was there for me. Whenever I felt lonely, he would stay beside me. He was the shoulder to cry on. He was the other half of me. And when we started to develop our feelings from friendship to something called love, I wished I would always stay with him. 

        But it didn't last long...

        I am a normal girl suffering leukimania. At first I thought it was somewhat minor but well, I'm capable of walking on this earth for less than three years. And I don't want him to go through it.  

        So it came to a conclusion,...

        Break up. 

I never thought it would hurt this much but now..

I feel like suiciding. 

Was I so wrong?

i still can't forget him.

i still need him. 

I miss him so much. 

I 'love' him...