What life meaning to me anymore?
I want to share to my aff user friend about little bit my life. read it..
Its interesting , believe me...
Well, I'm 15years old girl. Soon gonna be 16.
As a teen there a lot we have to through.. Family, study life, friend, and love.
Skip to my story... Isnt to cruel I said my life is worst... Maybe...
I have umma and appa.. One unnie and oppa.. I was the dongsaeng.
What? Being dongsaeng is the great? Hah! for me not.
Like daily life I feel worst sometimes... My unnie already married so she not live with us. Thats mean I'm the only daughter and my mom.
I know its my responsibility to do the house work, like washing the dishe and clean the house.. I do that all thing but my mom always complain and mad at me like I do not anything. I really disspointed with my mom attitude
I'm 15 years girl that always talk back to my parent.. I dont mean to be rude..But... I hate been accused for just small reason. My mom sometimes curse to me like I was other people in her life. How can I be patient over those curse word.
None of my sibling ever been slap by her.. Why just me? Why? I ask my friend if they ever been slap my their mother.. All of them said no. Lucky them.. I remember the second time my mom slap me using a slipper.. The slipper is hard. Wahh... Do I let be my mom slap me? No.. She trying to slap me again, but there..brave me push her hand away... The second time was in public place.. Infront of people. Its embarrassing . Right...
Been shout also shocking me..Like my father... :( Its hurt me....
Oh..I want to share you my bad habit.. when I stress.. I always cut my skin using a sharp thing.. I know that stupid..But I really cant control my self... Lucky.. I dont think about cut my wrist or suicide..
*Dont worry..Thats not my hand..It just example..I never do until my blood turn like that.. *
I put a little blades back of my phone and my wallet..
Its not hurt if I cut my arm.. Just its itchy ..Kyaa... Do my parent saw it? None of them saw.. Weird.. I never hide my arm.. I want to stop this stupid habit..but just I cant really really do it...
Last night.. I been trauma because of my brother.. I almost been throw by a heavy chair by him..
*LIKE THIS*
Running man play in 11.50pm.. Before it was 6.30pm.. but the hell it been change to midnight.. So it ended at 1.20.. *My parent are not in home because go to another country*
My brother home around 12pm.. He saw me still infront of tv. He start to curse all and start to 'stomping' thing around.. *I cant explain how..'' I just keep patient and just try to focusing the running man.. Then the curse start to loud.. I cant... anymore... I said to him.. ''Cant you just been patient.. There were a few minute to end..'' My brother keep curse curse curse and curse... -,-
I shout to him ''Fine! Eat those tv! You ...'' Then he stand up ''What the hell you said?!'' He lift the chair the throw to me..but lucky I was in the stair. The chair hit the stairs railing. He curse and talk back to him before I run to my room and lock it.
My brother try to chase me and said ''Out now! You think I dont afraid to punch you! !'' He scream all his lung out... Same as me in the room already cry and shaking in the bed...
I start to call my mom.. and told everything..Like I predict, my mom will blame me.. Okay.. My mom never mad at my brother or shout to him.. I end the call because my mom keep blame me..
I start to call my boyfriend.. The is..He not even answer because of sleeping..
Why before..he text me 3 in the morning.. I still can realize and wake to reply him because he said he was sick.. -,- Aish.. Call my Friend? also..Useless...
I realize... past of this month.. My relationship with him is kinda not stable..I dont know..maybe due his busy ..
This year. Our school holiday earlier for two month.. Holiday is the best right.. Holiday with family and whatever.. Me? yea. Wake , bath, take a prayer, and being infront of computer.. -,- My parent has no time to bring me holiday.. :l
Sad. me...
The end.. Well.. I need to continue my life right.. Well... Hwaiting to myself...
I always make Exo smile as my strength of my life... Yes.. I love them so much even I will never ever saw them infront of my reality... Know them was seriously miracle to me.. I wish I can thanked them once..even they do not know me..
+There..there..add stories... I read a unnie comment that said her father never satisfied with her gred..Lucky your people who your parent concern about your study..
ME? My parent never ask my homework, my exam result or said goodluck on my big exam..
+When I sick... My parent just ignore me... not even said ''Take a rest..'' While my brother sick.. They give medicine to him... I also jealous of my sister.. She just sick a little..but her husband ask her to go to clinic..
I still remember where I got a head sick for two more week.. Wooohh.. I told them..then they just nod and ignore it.... Also when I throw up because of fever... They mad at me just because I sick...
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