Just like what it says on the tittle... its about my little childhood crush. it start from him being my secret admire, he told me that he like me when both of us were 5. its really cute note. you want to know what he said?? 

[note: i'll keep his name as a secret.. sorry!]

'_____  love  anis, anis love  ____' 

that's all.. and he signed his name under it. and when he pass it, he knocked my front door, and put the note infront of the door. When i came out he wasnt there, i think he went to hide. cuteee.

But i never return his feel. what you think!? im 5 back there, he also. so we continue being friend. i would sleepover at his house. but he never sleep over at mine, i dont know why tho! 
we been friends until we reached 11. He suddenly told me that he going to move. i was like crying because he always with me, but then he said i still had my neighbour. after that i stop crying. and hug him for the last time. 

i didnt saw him for 3 years, he came back last year and give a necklace telling that he still had a feeling for me and told me to wait for him. (even im kinda despo for boys right now) i think about it again and wait for him.. until i start online dating!. hehehh xDDD 

but a few months ago he came to my house, we talked and i dont know what had gotten into me. When i see him my heart was beating like crazy, i think when i talk to him my face also became pink.. (i think)

he asked me whether im still single, and guess what, he freaking think that i already had a boyfriend! *pout* i was single like for 3 months already that time, and he think im in a relationship. but then he believe. i dont if he still had a feeling for me. im afraid that im too late to recognize he's feeling and he move on, finding a new girl *sulk*

just a little note... 

'___ i really hope that you didnt move on! when i was about to make you mine, dont ever think to stop loving me!!. X)' 
[i realize i love him a few days after his visit this year. and keep waiting for him if would come visit again. and again, i dont have his number]

and i'm still wondering... if he sees this blog, i don't think i can control myself anymore and might as well blurt everything out 

hehehe, i just miss him badly, this days...