I woke up feeling bad about the last thing I said to you. I've been sitting here thinking about it. Even before I woke up I've been thinking about this. I'm angery and hurt and so very confused. Now that I think about it our last conversations just proves what I've been saying this whole time. You asked me over and over if this is what I really want. Of course not you I dnt really want this but we both know its for the best. But what hurts me is that you continue to ask even after I just confessed all that I have to you. It really just drives the point that you're not bold enough or strong enough. You fall to easily. My agrument with you for the longest time has been this. You won't fight not even for a friendship. After I blow up you just let it be. You have no fight in you. So I continue to see here and I dnt regret what I said anymore. I can't be the one always talking I can't be the one fighting alone. We both cnt make promises and I'm fine with that. But at the end of the day I'm left with feeling the exact same feeling I had 7 years ago. I want what I can't have and again I'm the only one fighting for it. So ill stop and I won't regret what I said. What's done is done. You won't fight and there is no actual point in fighting. So ill just lay here and let Mind go into overdrive and leave my heart heavy. It's not like I haven't lived this way my whole life. Right.