I’m tired.
Of it all.
I feel like I could be so much better than what I am.
So I will go.
And change.
Ykno,
There are three sides to my character.
Ahkembria,
Kemmy,
And Kimmy.
Ahkembria is the poker faced child, who hates herself.
Kemmy is perfect in her family’s eyes.
Kimmy is not afraid to become who she needs to be; she isn’t afraid to be herself.
Rarely am I Kemmy.
Kimmy comes more often than Kemmy, but a lot less than Ahkembria.
I sound schizophrenic…
I hate my name with a passion.
If you see me ghosting around AFF, or Skype, or Chatango, or Youtube (I am almost always ricekk6670 unless some cretin decided to take it >.<)
I am trying to find myself.
Is it possible,
To be so lonely,
That you want to take it upon yourself to become even more distant from others?
I need to either get busy living or get busy dying. (One of my favorite Fall Out Boy songs)
I choose to do both.
I will kill Kemmy and Ahkembria.
And when I do,
I’ll be back.
If you remember me,
I did one thing correctly.
If you don't,
It was nice while it lasted.

P.s. As some of u-know, I'm a marshmallow addict, and after about a month of asking/pleading/beseeching/begging My umma, she finally bought me some this morn(ing). Have a virtual marshmallow, my loves. *passes around plastic bag of jet puffed marshmallows*

P.s.s. Yunho yunho yunho! I think I'm yunho biased even though I know nothing about him/them. Meh, things happen.

P.s.s.s. I know i just wrote a slightly angsty blog, but I can be many different emotions at the same time. Maybe I am schizophrenic... Meh. I read on wikipedia and it said they can die 12 to 15 years earlier than "normal" people. Death by my thoughts. Not too much suffering, nice.

P.s.s.s.s. I will still make blogs because that's how you find yourself, right?! By blogging about topics no one cares for.

P.s.s.s.s.s. I want hot chocolate.

P.s.s.s.s.s.s. I hate using the words: stuff and thing(s). Also, I hate using certain words too often.

P.s.s.s.s.s.s.s. My umma said I ate too many marshmallows. Maybe if someone didn't keep them away from me, I would get an off-button.

P.s.s.s.s.s.s.s.s. I may not talk to you this week, next week, or even the week after next. (brb finding myself!) but I am always going to be here. ('I'll always love you' plays in the background) I just don't think I deserve to talk to anyone right now.

Saranghaeyo | Mianhaeyo | Kamsahmnida | Annyeonghi Kaseyo