Sometimes I feel like my life is like a movie. Not that my life is interesting or exciting, just that… Its like I’m the hero and I have to do the biggest choice. But I just cant. Its like people expect me to do things I just cant do. Im not a superhero, Im just… myself. And when they put this weigh on my shoulders, I just feel like Im dying, suffocating. I really hate this feeling. When I know I have to do something but cant.

Sometimes I got mad, hurt or sad. Do I show it all the time ? No, cause the hero is supposed to be the one who fix the problems, right ? But well… Im not the typical hero, who’s strong, who risk everything cause he dont have anything to lose, cause he’s just so ing brave he let you speechless. No, I have feelings, emotions and its like no one actually cares. Being trapped in the same situation again and again, like an invisible jail without exit. And the person who’s supposed to help you, the person who has the key of this jail. What if its the same person who put you in it ? What if the savior is the one who makes you live all those things ? -sighs- what if it bother me so hard I just feel like giving up. But I cant. Cause I remember the reason why I held on so long. You may not understand this, but its okay. No one can understand. Cause no one can see in this jail, there’s a light, but its crushed by so much darkness… guess the hero might die in the end of the story…