HOLY SHIZ I KNOW THIS IS SOOOO LONG this is way too long.... But if you actually wanna read about my rambling and important stuff and what fanfics I might delete then go ahead :D

Wow, so this is my first blog on here and I JUST realized that instead of making uber long author notes about random stuff (but also important) I'll just make a BLOOOOOG. Yay, more random useless rants you'd just LOVE to read about :D [insert sarcasm]

so anyways, YES, I am in fact deleting some of my fanfics. You wanna know why? Because most of them I haven't updated in AGES and others I just.. really hate the plot. I tend to hate my writing after awhile .. actually let me just explain through this.

Thinking of new story idea = new fanfic = not thoroughly thought out plots and events = random chapters = tend to forget what I even wrote about = forget the story all together = wanting to delete it = deletes it and makes new fanfic = process happens again.

Sad right? ): I thought of these REALLY COOL fanfic ideas, I set up the whole ending and everything and all the twists and suspenseful moments but into my writing I just get bored and lazy.. readers affect my writing as well.. if I don't get sub/comments anymore that means no one reads it and THAT MEANS what's the point of me finishing a fanfic that I won't even have support for? 

Basically I get upset that all my story ideas go to waste. 

I'm not writing to impress other readers I write for myself; If I like and enjoy what I write I update chapters and if I dislike what I write then it's my choice to delete. 

I wrote a fanfic ( my first ever AFF fic) called "Love Struck"  No one subbed (Even after 9 written chapters) xD LOL. Maybe because it had nothing to do with anything K-pop and just random made up fictional characters acting weird... HEY, it was my first time then.. I thought you could write any fanfic... but nope... after awhile I realized this site was made for usually all KPOP. Fail. So I deleted it.

2nd fanfic was "Never Thought I'd Love You" I honestly wanna continue updating that but .. idk... I lost my supporters except my unnie who still supports me to update it.. but.. I'm just not into the fic anymore... 

||What I think I might do is just make a blog with my fanfic title on it and what I'll include in it is all my ideas and the ENDING yes, the ending to my fanfic that I might delete and share it with you guys. Some of you subscribers might find it upsetting to have it spoiled and others really just don't give a crap. But oh well, I want to share my ideas & endings completely before I delete the story. Just to have a memory of it.||

Anyways, 3rd fanfic was either "Just A Distant Memory" (MY FAVORITE DRAMA FANFIC I EVER WROTE and I seriously still laugh back at my chapters of it. But I kind of lost support so I might drop it.) "A Different Kind Of Love Language" (I loved that one because I thought it was unique and cute. And then again, I lost interest but thought of a really cool ending to it and cute chapters.) or "My Online Boyfriend" and I'm still updating MOB (LOLOL! M.O.B mob.. that's funny) so yeah. I'll for sure will keep up the updates for that because I got a lot of subs for it ^^ hope you guys will still support.. or else it's getting deleted o.o

Just Kidding :D

.. no really I might delete it eventually if that happens...

Hah, I wrote My 3rd fanfic but I listed like 3 fanfics... okay next..

4th fanfic is.. "Best K-pop Band Wins The Prize" HAHAHAHA. I'm a failure. I wrote the forward and thought it was cool and I never even made the first chapter (x I thought about deleting it a long time ago though... I still might.

and last I think created was "Bigbang & Shinee one-shot collections" I don't even know man... I can't decide... okay, so that's not even a fanfic it's just a place to write down my own ideas and create it into a one-shot. I wasn't expecting subscribers for it because it was only an organizing thing for me but .. I guess people can read it haha. I have a tendency to just suddenly want to write something so I made the one-shot collections to jot down some ideas and save it for future fanfic chapter updates. 

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Okay so those were the details. Let me break this down for you all.

The Fanfics I'm thinking of deleting are:

• The Best Kpop Group Wins The Prize
• A Different Kind Of Love Language

If you subscribed to these stories then I apologize. I will be creating a blog about all of my used to be ideas for it and the ending. Messaging me "PLEASE DON'T DELETE IT" will not help. It's not convincing enough and I feel pressured into updating it. A nice little note about WHY I shouldn't delete it would be nice. 

(random flashback note thing):

Because a couple months ago I was seriously going to delete this account permanently. I was sick of all the people forcing me to update and I'm like: 

"Damn guys, I have a life! Don't yell at me to update!" (I didn't say that to anyone I yelled at myself in my head lol) It frustrated me so much -.- I got some negative feedback on one of my stories but whatever, I'm over it now. 

So yeah, thanks to the amazing a_jeanellex3 (I've talked to her for so long on AFF I memorized her username (; LOL) helped me to not delete it.

If I never knew her and she never convinced me to not delete my account, I would have never continued on with "My Online Boyfriend" o.o So keep that in mind... she's really awesome and it's a big thanks to her!

She's so nice and supportive and she felt like a real friend to me. A really close long lost sister that I haven't met before, hehe. It's amazing how close we've gotten o.o she was like a stranger on AFF and we just suddenly happened to talk a lot then BAAAAAAAAAAAAM! [Adds on Facebook and Phone] That's closeness right there haha. 

But back to the point, she helped me to not delete my account and therefore I stayed because we agreed to do a duo fanfic together called You Are The One .

(end of random flashback note):

See if you're nice to me we can actually get along really great :D I'm not a pedo or anything o.o Just a friendly conversationalist who lets out her randomness  through her writing. *cough* My Online Boyfriend *cough* so weird! *cough* *cough* 

Oh dang, I must be getting allergic to this blog -.-

so yeah. I might delete those stories.... 

that's .. kind of it... hahahha. Just wanted to let you guys know. and If I haven't updated a fiction in sooooooooo long then I'm sorry. It's a sign that I'm losing interests in updating it and it might go on my delete list. But no worries~ Remember, I will be creating a blog about the ending and ideas and everything about that fanfic :D I don't ever wanna lose memory of what I've created. Cuz what if I'm like 90 years old and I still have this account and I log back in and I'm like "WHOOOOOA. I LIKED JIYONG? I WROTE STUFF ABOUT ME DATING KPOP BANDS? OH boy, better not tell my husband Kim Jonghyun about this or he'll be jealous!" 

I mean, I wanna reminsce about the good times and I want to tease my husband Jonghyun about what I wrote about him and how I'd daydream about him and stuff and show him all my subscribers stories about him so he'll feel loved <3

more like creeped but I'll force him to read all my subscribers fanfics if I have to o.o

Okay, long long long LONG long blog. I love writing so I'm sorry for my ramblings.... -sigh-

But another side note, please be nice and respective of my stories ): I know they're weird and stuff but that's my personality ^^ oh god.. I hope I didn't scare any of you guys.... 

Thanks to all of those who supported me for so long and are continuing to support me now. I got REALLY off topic on this blog but... I get distracted easily... hense to why I write such long author's notes and .. random... omg I have no idea what I'm typing right now... I'm just typing whatevers popping in my mind.. I think my dog ate my spaghetti... 

LOVE YOU. PEACE OUT. THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT. HOPE YOU WILL CONTINUE TO ENJOY MY FANFIC AND WON'T LOSE HOPE IN ME! 

People who support me; I support them back. THAT'S THE TRUTH YO! Tellin' the truth homieeee! Tellin' the tru--

Okay, bye.