This is the first time I've done a blog like this. But I guess people have to blow off some steam once in a while. And Izzy, don't say I'm overreacting. Let me vent my feelings about her LOL xD

So...this girl... I mean it'd be great if I liked her. She's plays on both teams if you know what I mean and she shares lockers with me and has the same classes and constantly, she clings on my arm and throws herself on me and corners me in the corner of the locker room and insists to help me change. Then she feeds me and buys me ice cream when I'm sad lol. I'm fine with whatever. I didn't and don't like her and as far as I knew, she's just touchy. But you know what? She gets me so mad sometimes. -.-

She starts getting verbally abusive and she starts calling me stupid and an idiot and saying it's weird how I ended up being at this school if I'm like this. And I withstood it for so long just passing it, thinking maybe she was just kidding. But the moment she told other people, the moment I asked my other friend about it and she was there saying it was true, that was really the last straw.

And now she wonders why I don't respond to her "you don't love me"s or her whining of how life's against her and all that stuff she complains about. Despite her knowing I'm becoming more distant with her, she still pulls on my shorts and leans on my shoulder and touches up my thighs. Really? I hope one day, soon, she'll get the idea that I want to be as far away from her as possible. Because the moment school starts she's on me, arms around neck. >.<

Then, there's him. XD He can be the sweetest thing ever and cute and charming. But ignoring the fact I told my friends I like him, I'm not so sure. I know at least I prefer him. I prefer to spend time with him but I don't know. He's proper and fancy I guess you could say and also in how he carries myself and treats others. And he's oblivious too which is good with all my friends are doing to make it obvious xD Today it was raining and he walked me to my car under his umbrella and I was all....asdfghjklskdu. But it's just been 2 weeks I think, since me and him started hanging out. Though I think over time, I think I'll prefer him more and more, I don't think it'll ever amount to what I felt for this other person before, a long time ago. My friends don't know why I'm hesitant and I can't tell them. I don't have the strength to do that. I'm not sure if I'm using him, deep in my mind, to forget. I don't know why I try so hard to be with him. Shouldn't just flow if you truly did like someone? I just hope in the end I make the right decision, not waiting for that special person to come back, because I know they won't, at least come back and be the way they once were.