Friendship are suppose to last forever, but how many times i do it or accept it, some things are just meant to be like that forever.

Have you even ever felt the times where you doubted yourself? 
Thinking that you are never gonna be good enough to them? 
Or just thought that they had never cared?

Friends are the main source of my daily faith in believing that there is GOD in the world- I am not saying that i don't believe in my God, but sometimes i tend to doubt there is one- because as much as i want to deny the fact that i am ALONE in the journey of life because my sisters and cousins are there beside me- waiting for me to call them for a hand- but they knew i would ever do such things- burden them with my problems- I would rather suffer and fake a smile than to worry the people I most love and treasure.

It might be funny but I don't really let my friends see my cry, disappointed, or angry because I know that I am in no position in letting them worry about me and the only time (last time) I cried in front of a friend and hugged her like my life depended on her- because it really is- is with let just call her "M". I hugged her and cried on her shoulder, letting her see the real me- a girl who is breaking down inside- and gave her some of my burdens but I didn't care. I knew she was the best one to share my problems with and made me realize that we should be selfish sometimes.

Well M, really is not the emotional type. She would rather write or answer or study in advance her lessons, the best way to describe a student, but she listened, she listened when she felt I needed her. She pushed me to no end Just to know more about me. She was the one who renewed me. At first, M and me was just like any other friends, but i grew to love her and cherish her than my small group of friends and I knew, I knew that this person is worth treasuring for, worth sacrificing for- just like how she sacrificed her time and ears in listening to my problems, though it is just a simple act and that "everyone can do it" but she made it special, she made me special- and worth growing old together. And no matter how destiny will play with us, she will be "the girl that I thought was mean - which is actually true - and horrible but became the best of friend that i knew was worth taking a risk for

I love my life and no matter how much i wanted to end this, i knew someone will be dying to kill me again for leaving her

M, thank you for being with me since the beginning, UNTIL THE END my FRIEND~