Breathe? How am I going to breathe if the place where i'm at has no thing called, oxygen? Or maybe I'm too stubborn to realize that thing exists.

Being more cheerful and talkative was easy for me to do but as if a new person had conquered my system. I find it hard to laugh, I do laugh, yet it seems the times I do is beginning to get rare or I will fake it just not to look like i'm a emotionless person.

Happiness. Where did you go? Why do I think you left me? Maybe it wasn't, maybe you're just there. playing hide and seek with me. Can you show yourself now? Because I'm too tired running and searching for you. Come back.

Hurt. yes, I admit, I've hurt some people emotionally because of the new me and I've also got hurt too. I've been more self-conscious and my self-confindence has been drastically went down. There is this thing called depression. It made me stressed and pushed me to make myself compare with other people and things that made me distant to others, To the world. Some of the people I value most have sensed that I've changed. I became quiet. They asked what happened. I wanted to say the truth but something held me back from doing it, what if they don't understand me?  What if they'll find it ridiculous and just laught at me? You can say I was scared. Oh how I wish I tell them the truth then maybe they helped me. I want to be happy so I tried fitting in the society but it didn't change anything I tried to be something different but it made it worse. Now, I'm too confused on what to do. If you were me, what would you do? What would you do to survive from drowning on this very deep sea called depression?

Right now, I could just think of running away from this place and go to somewhere else where this hurtful feelings doesn't exists. I might find people there to help me.