urm, hello?

i don't know if anyone will read this or if someone will stumble upon it or something... well, it doesn't even matter anyway.

when i read  the fanfics here, i wonder how everyone can like, write easily. it amazes me. i have a lot of things inside my head and i find it so hard to actually start writing... anything. even writing this is so hard for me. my mind is like a jumble of mess where each and every word collides with each other making it so hard to actually concentrate on actually anything.

and that doesn't even make any sense.