I don't know what to do.

Because honestly, I don't really know how to feel. I'm not good with this things: feelings.

Should I be trying out dresses in front of the mirror?? Should I be getting face masks prepped or maybe cut some cucumber for my eyes?? Should I dress y?? With stockings and a short dress and some high heels?? Should I be accessorizing?? Should I wash my hair??

I feel like just putting on my old Beavis and Butthead t-shirt, pulling on a random pair of skinnies and taking the subway, honestly.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm excited. I really am. This is my first ever K-Pop concert. And it's my favorite group headlining. And I've spent half my monthly earning on the dratted ticket, cause I couldn't just go and stand right in the back for this, no way.

And really, I think when the time comes I'll be screaming my head off to the lyrics of Lucifer (doubtful, actually) and jumping up and down like a toad to Sherlock (again, highly doubtful) But how am I supposed to be feeling right now??

Should I be feeling love? I'm going to see my wonderful boys tomorrow night.

Should I be feeling lucky? I don't think I would've made it to SWC2 in Singapore, no matter how many plans I'd been making for the last two months...

I'm going to see the best thing that's happened in my life, and I don't know how to feel.

Eottoke.