# 4 : my Two cents for the night

I don't know why I decided to make a blog at this time, I am really sleepy and tired but here I am making a blog, It’ll probably make no ing sense and I am pretty sure no one really cares about what I have to say, but I am going to say it anyway. I feel like we all go through times where we feel unworthy, pathetic and maybe useless, I am going to be the first person to admit to it, but then again who says it’s not okay to feel like that some times. There are so many……. I mean so many times where I feel like running away and hiding somewhere far …..far away, because I am sick and tired of everything around me and especially my decisions and how I deal with things .I also push away people I care about, mostly because I don’t want them to see my flaws or just because I feel like being alone at that moment, I spend 95% of my free time in front of my laptop doing dumb , instead of hanging out with my mother who basically have to beg for my attention or my real friend who actually care about me. All I am trying to say is, hurting yourself or making yourself feel pain to make up for all the ed up things in your life shouldn’t be an option at any kind circumstance, I am not going to sit here and lie and say the thought never came to my mind ,i had times where I felt so depressed to the point where I didn’t want to live anylonger, but I’ve never attempted or tried to hurt myself because deep down inside I know I’m worth something ….like everyone else . i am worth living ,at the end of the day we’re all just human, and I know that sounds like an lame excuse, but honestly we can’t always be perfect and we certainly shouldn’t try to be it .sometimes we just need to learn to ignore negative b.s and just live life. love yourself the way you are, and maybe if you want changing some things here and there to make people you care about happy, but just truly love yourself even with all the flaws , but again hurting yourself is never a good idea and we ALL deserve to live and breathe as long as we can.

I hope this makes some sense to whomever reading it……..

"THE PERFECT QUOT! "

I apologize for any crazy werid typos i made......just blame my sleepness lol

GOOD NIGHT!

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Fayfayluv #1 Nov 5, 2012 05:33:19

it really makes me feel good that you actually know i care about you unnie and that my effort isn't wasted, and i knew you would under stands me , but last night i made this blog because i read another blog on here and it made me feel sad and i wanted to do something if anything about it.and i totally agree with everything you said ,we all go through hard times maybe some more often then other or harder then others , but we all have to look past that moment and know there is more to live for.
*hugs you just cause* i hope you also know i am always here for you ^^

starlove #2 Nov 5, 2012 00:11:42

Aigoo saengie.
Mianhaeyo. i understand how you feel. At times we do these things because its the only thing we have left of the right things we want to do to those that we care for. They mean so much to us that we just dont want to feel like we're being a burden to them. Or because we love them too much we're willing to sacrifice letting them go and hurting them for their happiness.
Trust me, everyone had come to that point in their life before were they just want to give up and not give a damn about life. But no one ever said life was easy but what we make of life is what will make us who we are. I live through some of the toughest obstacles in my life and i'm still here everyday looking forward to the next because i got friend like you who care about me, i got family that look up to me, and because i myself believe that each and everyday will be better than the next as long as i try.
Everyone is unique in their own way, that's why we as human being have to see past that. Everyone have their own way of seeing the world, its up to the people going in and out to decide if they want to stick with the view and appreciate the person or to walk away and lose one valuable person.
So all in all, It's what comes from your heart that makes you who you are.