First of all CONGRATS on 100 chapters, YAY!!!!!

*throws confetti*

I would make you a cake but you live in Canada and I live in Chicago and it’s summer and it would probably melt or something so I’ll give you a virtual cake *smashes cake in your face*

HOORAY!!!!

Ok so in honor of your 100 chapters of awesomness I decided that I would do something I have been meaning to do for awhile.  I reread your story everyone once in awhile, usually I just read my favorite parts over and over again.  I never comment on them though, so that makes me a failosaurus as a reader.

So I decided that you are owed all of these comments and in honor of all of your hard work and reaching 100 chapters, I went back and reread the entire story, I typed out all of my reactions, comments, reviews, whatever you want to call them so this is effectively one readers, reactions as they read your story I hope you enjoy.

I didn’t want to post these in the comment box because I would probably confuse the hell out of people if I was all Heechul, you need to chill the heck out, and they’re all “what is she talking about Heechul isn’t even in this chapter ?!?”  So I’m putting it here instead, although if you want me too I can put the comments in the comment box so everyone can bask in their glory. (they're really not that awesome but I know comments are the bread and butter of authors so I wanted you to have these)

So, here it is my comment extravaganza

Chapter 1:

Kyu is such a good kid helping out an old man who just yells at him.

All I can say is, I’m really glad I’m not in THAT guys class, I know it’s a different education system and this probably isn’t all that uncommon but OMG no way would I be able to deal with that.

I love how you let us know what we’re in for through this chapter, it’s a great introduction to Kyu and the story.

Chapter 2:

Yay! Ryeowook, he’s one of my favorites.  I love that you don’t write him as that sickeningly sweet, helpless baby version of a person that he usually get’s characterized as in fanfiction.  He’s a young man, not a little boy people! That always drives me crazy.

Wow Kyu has a lot of dedication, I mean I know he needs it to get where he wants to be but Holy Cow, I don’t know if I could do it

Chapter 3:

This Minhyun guy, I don’t think I’m going to like him very much.

Hooray for Jonghyun, honestly when I started reading this I had no clue he was but now that I’ve gotten into SHINee and know who he is it’s so much better.

I love how with Kyu explaining to Jonghyun how the system works, we the reader learn about it as well and it doesn’t feel like you’re shoving exposition down our throats

Chapter 4

My heart stopped when he walked in on Donghae and Eunhyuk, awkward to the MAX, at least they’re pretty cool about it, although I do feel bad for him having to do his dance without music.

Poor Kyu when they ask him if he has a song prepared and he’s all “umm What?”  And then he thinks they’re going to kick him out, what a nerve wracking day.

Chapter 5

Ouch, yep really don’t like this Minhyun guy.

I do however like how Kyu struggles with his position and eventually decided to do what’s right and respect his junior, even though it’s the harder road for him.  It shows us a lot about his character

Chapter 6

Oh Jonghyun you’re so awesome I love this sentence

But if I had given you twice what I got, you wouldn't be helping me clean right now.

Because it pretty much sums the whole situation, problems with the system etc up.

Chapter 7

I love how he thinks he walked into the wrong room, and tries the back away slowly and hope no one saw method when everyone is staring at him.  Did he actually think that was going to work? Lol

UGH, I can feel the tension in that room from here.  I felt so bad for him when everyone bowed at the same time and he had no clue what was going on.  Nothing like trial by fire huh.  And I wish I could say it’s going to be ok and it’s going to get better but unfortunately we all know that won’t be happening any time soon.

He can’t even be excited about getting his debut offer because of the waves of unwelcome rolling off the other members and that’s just sad.

Chapter 8

Ok, so I’m going to defend the teacher here because he does have a point, Kyu needs to choose what he wants, either singing or academia, it doesn’t much matter which one he chooses but he has to choose one because it is going to be extremely hard to succeed at both simultaneously

Chapter 9

Awkward turtle anyone?  That’s uncomfortable, ding dong “Hi, I’m moving in today”  “you’re what?!?” 

I feel a little bit bad for everyone involved in this situation.  For Kyu, because he has to move into a dorm where no one wants him and then sleep on the floor in a room where no one wants him.

And Hae and Min because they have to let this new kid they don’t even know sleep in their already super small room.  And since I already know what’s going on I feel REALLY bad for Sungmin because in his mind not only is this kid possible taking his spot on the team but he’s taking his room as well.  I don’t blame him for storming out.

Chapter 10

 Ok so while I’m not particularly fond of Teukie at this point I don’t really have a reason to hate him yet.  That being said the Manager is super hard on him, Sungmin is a grown man, and while yes Leetuek is the leader he can’t control Sungmin’s actions.

I also don’t blame Kyu for not sleeping in the room that night, I know I wouldn’t

Chapter 11

Way to jump to conclusions about breakfast Kyu.

that he has to do the dishes but I guess that’s life

Love your Ryeowook

Chapter 12

Welcome to the land of no more free will.  It will now be decided for you how you dress, how you wear your hair, what you eat, where you go, how you get there, we hope you enjoy your stay.

Chapter 13

Bum da dum………Donghae to the Rescue!!!!!

Chapter 14

And now we learn that Maknae=servant apparently.  I really wouldn’t do well in this sort of culture, someone would tell me to get them water and I’d be telling them to get it themselves.

I love how he starts banging on the door with his back, as if someone is going to get up and open it for him, I just have this hilarious mental image of Kyu with his arms full of bottles throwing himself at a closed door hoping someone opens it.

Chapter 15

Caught between a rock and a hard place isn’t he, well I can’t say I blame him for just saying screw it and showering and reading, I probably would have done something similar.  Although he has to face the consequences and I don’t so….

Kudos to Sungmin and Donghae for giving him a few minutes to himself though.

Chapter 16

I know what it feels like to be left out and the image of Kyu standing in the kitchen eating by himself while everyone else is enjoying themselves in the living room breaks my heart.

Poor Sungmin now the new kid that he has to share his room with also gets part of his solo.

Chapter 17

I will say I feel a bit bad for Jonghyun in this chapter because I’ve never quite understood why Kyu blows up at him.

How the heck is he going to make it all the way to school, check in and make it all the way back in 30 mins?

Chapter 18

OK so that episode at school was just a parade of bad.  First the whole no uniform, then talking back to the Vice Principal, then using the phone in his office, THEN running down the hall to say to his teacher “hey I’m here but I’m leaving”  I love you Kyu but sometimes you need to think about the things you do.

Ok so I suppose it wasn’t totally his fault and there is a bit of “how do I get myself into these situations” but it kinda was so…

Chapter 19

Again, how is it Leeteuk’s fault that Kyu wasn’t there, Kyu is his own person, Teukie can’t control him.

So, he was late, he didn’t have any prayer of being on time, but he was late so I guess he deserved something?  I don’t know but at least Siwon came and stopped it before Kyu couldn’t walk anymore, so YAY Siwon

YAY Jonghyun, he’s just so earnest it’s almost impossible not to like him.

Chapter 20

I read the first part and all I can think is, this is not going to end well, he doesn’t have a clue what he’s doing.

Then he starts cooking and, wow, disaster city, but hooray for Ryeowook to the rescue

Chapter 21

Jonghyun to the rescue?  This just seems like a bad idea

4 seconds, really?  It doesn’t seem like much but it is his first professional recording so YAY!!

AND of course Ryeowook would walk in on him while he’s padding, I love Wookie’s reaction though “so you weren’t shooting up?”

Chapter 22

Ok so Wookie must have a lot of patience because all Kyu does is snap at him.  It is also a spectacularly bad idea to drink on a night when you have work the next day boys, just so you know.

Chapter 23

Ok, so since I already know how the older ones feel about him in this chapter, I really don’t blame Leeteuk for flipping the hell out.  Kyu deserved it

Chapter 24

This sentence

‘God, that had to be one broom in the entire building that was always busy that never did any sweeping.’

Always makes me laugh

Ok, I’m not sure why but Kyu annoys me in this chapter, I know he’s trying to protect Ryeowook, but he almost seems not quite arrogant, but something, I don’t know but he drives me crazy here

Chapter 25

This chapter is hilarious, and sad, and probably more true than any of us realize since there is no way all of those boys get along that well ALL the time.

Chapter 26

Hooray for official SUJU.

Aww Sungmin don’t cry

This sentence ‘I hadn't sat down on a bed in so long...’ always makes my heart hurt for Kyu, I just want them to get him a damn bed!

Chapter 27

Well, at least he TRIED to help Jonghyun

Chapter 28

God, some fangirls can be SOO mean

Aww Wookie,

This really shouldn’t make me laugh but every time Yesung punches him I chuckle.

And seriously Yesung, overreact much?

Ok Kyu, I understand storming out, and throwing yourself a pity party, you do deserve it but drinking is probably not the best idea for you right now

Chapter 29

I really do love Ryeowook, and I really love these two together, especially when they aren’t snarking at each other

I love the insight into Wook’s motives and I love that he and Kyu are getting closer

Chapter 30

"Aren't you scared?"
"Of what?" I said.
"Of the deep you're sitting in, Kyuhyun," said Ryeowook.

Well said Wook, well said.

Good luck with this one Kyu is all I have to say

Yep just wing it, great idea, because that has worked so well for you so far

Oh Sungmin, I love you

I really love the interactions between Kyu, and Wook, and Kyu and Min in this chapter

Chapter 31

I love the interactions between the manager and Kyu, we can really see their relationship building, but my favorite part of this chapter is this

"You're not in school anymore, where everything is solved by apology. You're in society now. You have to think about the consequences, not just to you, but to those around you. Because they're real consequences now, of real success and real failure."

Because it’s so true, we all reach a point in our lives where just saying I’m sorry doesn’t fix things, you have to be an adult and make choices and face the consequences of those choices.  And you have to consider how those choices affect those around you. It’s part of being an adult, Kyu is young but he’s reached that point in his life.

Chapter 32

Well, that’s one way of dealing with the situation I suppose

Chapter 33

Aww Sungmin always trying to take care of s

Chapter 34

Heechul is such a Diva, just admit that you messed up, you know you did, why put everyone through this and waste time

Chapter 35

Are you doing this because youwant to get it?

Seriously Heechul, what are you expecting him to say?  Every time someone asks him this I want him to say, “Why yes, that is exactly what I was hoping for.  Being beaten is my favorite part of the day”

I’m glad Leeteuk stopped Heechul

I also love how they’re all too excited to sleep the night before the comeback, although I am sad to hear about Donghae’s dad

Chapter 36

Ok Kyu, chill out, Sungmin means well, I know he invaded your privacy but he’s just trying to help there’s no need to yell and say mean things

I’ll say it again, I love Sungmin, he’s so patient and understanding and always trying to help out s

Chapter 37

I don’t have anything else to say other than I love this chapter it’s beautiful and so real

Chapter 38

They reacted that way cause they wanted to hear him sing

That’s a y policy, restaurant.  Here’s a question why didn’t some of them just move to a different table, Ryeowook, and Sungmin and maybe even Donghae would probably have sat with him anyway

Kyu really does try too hard to please the members; it breaks my heart when he leaves

Chapter 39

Poor lonely Kyu, I feel so bad for him.  He needs to take better care of himself and stop worrying about the other members.

I know what it is like to not want to go back to a place where your roommates hate you but it will get better Kyu.  Not any time soon unfortunately but eventually it will get better

Finally he get a congrats on his debut, and he’s starting to win over the fangirls.

Chapter 40

That’s right Kyu, stand up for yourself, you weren’t there, you didn’t make that mess don’t clean it

On second thought that may not have been the best idea,

wow, go Eunhyuk for finally putting a stop to it though

Chapter 41

I’m glad he has Ryeowook and Eunhyuk to help him out.  I don’t blame him for wanting to quit but I’m glad the manager talked him out of quitting right away; he’s worked too hard and endured too much to just give it all up now.

Aww Kyuhyun is looking out for Donghae it’s really sweet

Chapter 42

Don’t push Wookie away Kyu!  He’s your best ally on the team.

And Siwon being so nice.

And yes Kyu those two weeks are supposed to make everything harder for you so you wont leave the team

Chapter 43

So we know what Kyu does with his day off and I totally don’t blame him for not cleaning up the living room, he made his choice, clean or get hit, I wouldn’t clean either.

What I really want to know however is what happened that day at the office.  Sungmin slept through the whole thing right, so what must it have been like for him the next day.

  Someone had to have told him “yeah Kangin beat the tar out of Kyu last night so everyone’s a bit touchy today”

I’ve been there when roommates have a huge blow out but you’re either asleep or not home, it’s super awkward the next day, so I wonder how everyone else’s days went.

Oh and someone needs to punch Kangin in the face because he totally deserves it

STOP PUSHING RYEOWOOK AWAY KYU.  You like him and you need him you idiot.

Chapter 44

I love how he is trying to be a better person and respect his juniors, I also love that he sometimes slips, because he’s human and that will happen

Chapter 45

Of course now the hyungs start getting closer to him.

Damn vultures at school, they drew all over his desk?!

At least they wrote nice things but come on give the guy a break and some room to breathe damn it

Chapter 46

Ok, HOW was he supposed to avoid having his picture taken, he told them not to but they did anyway it’s not like he can grab everyone’s camera and run off with them, although that would be a hilarious image, Kyuhyun cackling as he runs down the hall with everyone’s cameras

I love the scene with Eunhyuk helping Kyu with his dance, but 9 straight hours, damn that’s a LONG time.

Wow and then only 45 minutes of sleep poor Kyu baby

Chapter 47

Donghae really is in the wrong business if he’s afraid of crowds.

I also love that he is defending Kyu to his fans

Chapter 48

I don’t blame Donghae for slapping Kyu especially after he explains why the hyungs are so irritated by Kyu, I would have slapped him too.  It’s like Kyu is throwing all of their hard work in their faces.  He has to pay his dues too.  You can’t start at the top Kyu baby.  Although Kangin did take it WAY too far

I’m glad Hae has faith enough that Kyu is going to make the right decision that he wants him to meet his dad.

Chapter 49

Knowing what is coming makes my heart break for Donghae here although I love Donghae’s dad he’s pretty awesome, and I love how he refers to all of the SUJU boys as his sons.

Chapter 50

Time for more heartbreak with Donghae, he promises to be back within the month but I don’t think he makes it does he?

Donghae does have a point in why they want Kyu to be perfect, he didn’t train for that long, but obviously there was something about him that was good enough to debut so now he has to work extra hard to be better.  It but that’s the way the cookie crumbles

At least he extends the first olive branch, somebody has to be the bigger person and it’s not going to be Leeteuk at this point, way to go Kyu.

Chapter 51

I admire Kyuhyun’s restraint I would have thrown the bowl AT Leeteuk

And Kyu REALLY shouldn’t cook. In fact, there should probably be an alarm that goes off to alert people whenever he gets too close to the stove.

Chapter 52

Get off your damn high horse Leeteuk, all he wants to do is talk to you.

I am glad that they took the time to cool off before addressing the situation though, it does show some progress since before I think Teukie would probably have just beaten him and been done with it.

Chapter 53

Oh Wookie you really are the best.  I’m glad Kyu is realizing that he has been really not nice to Wook and is going to start trying to be better

And Leeteuk you’re really being an right now, STOP IT!

Chapter 54

Wow, Kyu is hard headed, once he gets something into his head he REALLY won’t let it go.

Leeteuk must be really hard hearted at this point to watch a boy who is supposed to be under his care do this to himself.  Even if Kyu wasn’t Teukie’s responsibility, he lives in the house with him, how can you just walk by a kid who is starving himself and sleeping on the floor outside of your room all night?  All he wants is a conversation and Teuk can’t even give him that, it has to come down to Kyu sobbing and half dead before Leeteuk will talk to him, that’s cold.

I like how Sungmin and Donghae try to get Kyu to eat, it shows the developing relationship between them, and Kyu’s absolute stubbornness.

This chapter tugs at my heart strings every time I read it, it’s amazing

Chapter 55

I’m glad Leeteuk finally decided to talk to Kyu, and while I’m glad we finally understand his motives and they make sense to him, they still don’t excuse what he’s done.

When he says “so this is how badly I treat you”  and “you know it really is a problem when the maknae has to starve himself for 3 days to be able to talk to his leader” it tears my heart out.  He should feel bad this is mostly his fault all the boy wanted to do was talk.

I love how honest they are with each other in this chapter those things really needed to come out and now at least they know where they stand with each other.  I also love that Kyu is staying if only to make Teukie’s life hell.

Chapter 56

Ok seriously Heechul, who asked you?  Shut up and go to bed, you’ve been skipping practice so you don’t get to talk.

Poor Kyu being sick, at least Teukie is trying to help although that’s probably partly him trying to save his own .  He should be helping Kyu though since he did cause this and at least he acknowledges that fact.

And again I say, Kyu should never be allowed near a stove

Chapter 57

AWW Kyu, it’s your first fan, and she stabbed you, can’t you just feel the love already?

Leeteuk and Kyuhyun’s reactions to the doctor telling them he might report the manager were hilarious.

I also like that Teukie stood up for Kyu and got him some peace and quiet

Chapter 58

Ok so those performances had to seriously for him, up all night, just came from the hospital and haven’t eaten in 4 days, yeah I DO NOT envy him there.

Jonghyun, always good for a laugh but also incredibly stupid in this instance

Kyuhyun might overreact just a bit here but, really he has every right too after all he’s been through, especially for Jonghyun who knows how he feels about that.

Chapter 59

"Heechul, you weren't even at practice. The least you can do is pay attention while we're explaining the formation!" Leeteuk was saying.

My thoughts,….. this will not end well……. And then……..

"Whatever, I'll figure it out during the dry run. It's not like we're adding dance, we're cutting it. Stop worrying," said Heechul

Oh yeah, this is going to be a disaster……

And then they get through it without incident and I am amazed.

I am also super proud of them for winning an award YAY!!!

And I’m super proud of the manager for not choosing to go to a restaurant that will make the whole team resent Kyuhyun YAY!!!!!

YAY we’re all so Happy and awesome and having a great night and then Donghae leaves……

Uh Oh, this is not going to end well

Chapter 60

Kyuhyun is seriously going to develop a complex about celebrating with the team if every time there is a team party he ends up being beaten.

In this chapter the manager is being a total

I’m glad Kyu is standing up for what he knows is right, Donghae deserves time with his father, and the manager shouldn’t think that just because he beats Kyu, Kyu will tell him what he wants to know.

Chapter 61

Sungmin to the rescue again always taking care of everybody; it was very sweet of him to get Kyu ice.

Donghae chill out, I know you’re upset and you have a right to be, because the manager busted in on you, but that does not give you leave to attack Kyu.  Plus you snuck out so you’re in trouble too.

I’m sorry that the relationship between Kyu and the manager hyung is broken but the manager deserves it, he shouldn’t have done what he did.

Chapter 62

And Hooray Kyu, you’ve won over another hyung.  He even gave you cake huzzah!

Dance practice until 5 am! No thanks I’ll pass.

Of course it took him longer to learn the dance it’s the middle of the freakin’ night!

I’m sad that the manager is passing Kyu off to another manager but I see his reasoning behind it.

Chapter 63

Wow that new manager .

Jonghyun, get your head out of your .

I smell a reunion on the horizon

Chapter 64

That other manager REALLY, REALLY , completely forgetting to tell Kyu about Dancing Out not cool.

I’m glad Kyu finally got the chance to it out and let out all of that pain and frustration he really needed to.

I’m also super glad he and the manager made up since that manager is like his rock and he needs someone like that in his life

Chapter 65

It’s nice to see Kyu in a good mood that almost never happens.

Jonghyun totally missed the point of everything Kyu has been doing for him but at least now they’ve talked about it and made up, this makes me super happy.

Chapter 66

Really Kyu? Asking Donghae to sleep on the couch?  It’s his room too, could you be any ruder?

Oh Wookie you make me laugh, I talk to my TV too.  It drives my roommates crazy.

To 20 in the school that’s going to be tough to do.

Chapter 67

Ryeowook is so good to him.

Again Heechul, who asked you?  This is between Kyu and Wook, they’ve worked it out so why do you need to be involved.

Chapter 68

This chapter makes my heart twist and burst with happiness at the same time.

On hand Heechul kicks the crap out of Kyuhyun for no reason, that is totally uncool and he really needs to stop PMSing or whatever the male equivalent to that is.

On the other hand Kyu gets some awesome bonding moments with his younger hyungs, when Eunhyuk tells him that it will never be like last time because now they have his back it makes me smile so much.

Then I see this……

"Does he know the formations?" I asked Eunhyuk.
Eunhyuk looked uneasy. "I explained it to him briefly on the bus, but I don't know."
"He didn't even do the soundcheck," I said, worried.
Eunhyuk sighed. "There's nothing we can do now. Let's just do our best,"

And I think to myself, oh this can’t end well….

Then everything gets FUBAR and wow, just wow is all I can say

Chapter 69

Ok so the manager is being kind of harsh, but they all did F-up royally so they do deserve it.

I’m glad the manager took Kyu aside and warned him about the punishment; it shows that he’s learned from his mistakes

I like that Kyu gets to do something for Ryeowook, but the whole time in my mind I’m going come on Wook man up and just get it over with, but this gives them an opportunity to get even closer.

I also like the slight inroads he’s making with Yesung, he’s slowly winning them over one by one

Chapter 70

Sungmin is annoying here, taking Kyu’s ice that he thoroughly deserves since not only did he get double what everyone else got, he got it on top of a severe beating from the week before.  But, Sungmin does always take care of s so I guess I won’t begrudge him it too much.

Fangirls can be really, really mean, I mean they made a mistake, Heechul made a mistake, a really BIG one but it can happen sometimes, it shouldn’t have, but it did, so accept it and move on.  It really wasn’t all Heechul’s fault he just started it, everyone else made their own mistakes.

Good lord the relationship between Leeteuk and Heechul is toxic

So, Heechul’s been an annoying but I really do feel bad for him here, just let the poor guy move out, he’s a grown man he can make his own decisions

Chapter 71

"Could you - could you possibly get me a bed?"
I expected the manager hyung to laugh at me or get angry at me for asking for something so huge at a time when I should be scolded,

This sentence breaks my heart; the poor boy has to beg for a bed and feels bad about asking for something so big.  I just want them to get him a damn bed already.  I’d buy him one myself if I had money and could time travel.

Chapter 72

Poor Kyu, losing the one person he can put all of his trust in, that big time.

I don’t think your problems are insignificant Kyu, but you’re right Donghae’s are WAY bigger right now

Leeteuk really shouldn’t promise Donghae that his dad is going to get better, I know he’s just trying to comfort him, but that is going to blow up in his face

Chapter 73

Kyuhyun and his dedication, I’m in awe every time, dancing all night and sleeping the practice room, that’s hardcore.

Kyuhyun is a studying monster and that new manager totally doesn’t get what is important to Kyu.  But, Kyu really should get some sleep

Chapter 74

Kyu you need to sleep, you won’t learn anything when you’re exhausted

Damn it Cho Kyuhyun, BE NICE TO RYEOWOOK, all he’s trying to do is be nice to you and help you and you bite his damn head off.

Someone really needs to smack that boy.  And not in the, I’m going to beat you with a broom way, but in the light tap upside the head way.  A friendly smack to bring him to his senses.

I don’t blame Wookie for being pissy at him, he deserves it.

On a lighter note, yay he’s got some fans!!!

Chapter 75

Oh Dear God, Heechul and Kyuhyun alone in a room together for several days, one of them is not going to make it out alive

I love how totally gangster Kyu is, drinking his wine and studying, although honestly if I were him, I’d need a drink to be able to stay in that room with Heechul too.

Chapter 76

Poor Kyu, still feeling like an outsider, it’ll get better baby

Jesus Heechul, someone needs to get that guy some Prozac or something, he’s so tightly wound.  It’s not like Kyu can help the fact that he didn’t use honorifics, since you threw a pillow at him and woke him up nor can he help the fact that he snores so calm the hell down.

Chapter 77

I feel so bad for him, I know the manager is overworked and trying his best but that’s a HUGE thing to miss.

Six exams with only 5 minutes in between, my hand is going to fall off just thinking about it

Chapter 78

Kyu just can’t catch a break right now can he, he’s done with his exams but now he’s sick and then the results come out, damn physics

It’ll all be ok Kyu, just keep telling yourself that and maybe someday it will be true

Chapter 79

I like how the teacher is straight up with him and doesn’t try to sugar coat anything.  He’s been telling Kyu over and over that he needs to make a decision and that he’s not going to be able to pull off both a singing career and an extremely successful academic one.  He’s not mean about it, just truthful, and you have to respect that.

I love supportive manager though, the relationship he has with Kyu is so good.

Chapter 80

I have great respect for the way Kyu handled his fall, he got right back up and continued.

I do not have any respect at all for the way Leeteuk handles the situation.  Kyu did not deserve to be beaten, what happened was in no way his fault, he couldn’t help the stage being wet.

Chapter 81

I’m glad he’s finally getting some support from fans.

Leeteuk you REALLY need to let it go, because I’ve seen videos of you falling all over yourself onstage so enough already

Oh God, Donghae,

Chapter 82

My heart shatters for Donghae here, that’s all I can really say.

Donghae baby, you’ll get through it and it’ll make you stronger

Chapter 83

In this one my heart goes out to Kyu, Min and Tuek because what they are doing is not easy but at least this will now become one of those moment in your life that you can look back on and go, if I could make it through that I can make it through anything.

Oh and Kudos to Sungmin for stopping the fight.

Chapter 84

Oh Donghae, I just want to give him a hug, and tell him he’ll make it through, because those tropes about how his dad’s in a better place, and it’s better this way only make things worse.

Chapter 85

It’s not your fault Donghae

Evil company men grrr…..

Chapter 86

When I first read this chapter I rooted for Kyu, but now that I’m reading it again, I know he’s under a lot of stress and is going through a lot of things emotionally but he’s being super rude and I don’t blame the teacher for kicking him out.  I also don’t blame kyu for blowing up at the teacher

“You should never be in the kitchen,” Oh Ryeowook, truer words were never spoken

Chapter 87

This is one of my favorite chapters, it’s hilarious

First of all, you would think the older hyungs would know not to let Kyu cook, Teukie has experienced it on more than one occasion even if Kangin hasn’t they’re lucky if he only burns the food, and doesn’t burn the apartment down.

I love that he buys the vacuum, because Kangin did say to buy something to clean the dorm with, and a vacuum falls into that category

Kangin’s “good for you” comment is honestly one of the best parts of the chapter.

I also love that this is all it takes for Kangin to warm up to him, badly cooked SPAM and a vacuum cleaner

Chapter 88

I can’t believe he ambushed you either Kyu, that is totally uncool, but I do agree with the manager, cut the attitude alright, at least TRY to be polite.

However he is a teenager, and teenagers are moody and attitudinal so I guess I’ll forgive you.

Damn the manager about knocked him into next week with that slap

I love this chapter more than I think I can even say.  I love the conversation between the manager hyung and the teacher, it reveals so much about the manager and his relationship with Kyu.  Some of the things he says make me want to tear up.  He cares so much for Kyu, that’s probably why he’s so hard on him sometimes, he wants what is best for him.  Kyu is so luck to have him.

I also love that Kyu is so typically teenagery here.  I think sometimes when we’re reading this we forget how young Kyu actually is here, because he is going through so much and doing so much but he really is only 18-19 years old, that’s really pretty young to be doing all of the things he’s doing and going through everything he’s been through.

So I kind of love that he gets all attitudy, and screams and tells them he hates them and then tells the manager he loves him, it keeps him human, and reminds us that he is still just a kid

Chapter 89

I love how the manager is trying to figure out how to discipline Kyu and Kyu’s all like “ You’re free to get another broom, but I’m certainly not going too”

Kyu, gets sent to bed without supper, lol, it’s such a fatherly thing to do, I love their relationship

I love, love, love the scene between Eunhyuk and Kyu in the kitchen, it makes me laugh so much, I love that he feels comfortable with at least some of the hyungs that he can joke around and laugh, he needs that.

Sometimes I really love that teacher, he’s like the tough love advice Kyu needs, he’s trying to get Kyu, where he wants to go but he is also completely straight with him about what is most likely to happen

"Do I - do I have to go?" Yes Kyu, you have to go.

I love this conversation between Kyu and the manager, from the “He scares me” to the “I’d rather just get to know him from afar.”  It makes me laugh so hard.

Chapter 90

I said this before when I commented on this chapter but, I really don’t like those company people, they were really mean to Heechul, I mean the guy is still in the hospital and they tell him he’s no longer worth anything basically.

I also don’t blame Heechul for what he says about Kyu, since it is true, and he is hurting, and Heechul is a lot more sensitive than people give him credit for, he’s hiding it behind a tough sarcastic exterior

Chapter 91

I smell the birth of SJ-M on the distant horizon with Kyu beginning to learn conversational mandarin

Yay for winning another award, I do feel bad for Heechul because he can’t be there, and Donghae’s message to his dad makes me a little misty eyed, but we get a lovely little EunHae bro love moment

Minhyun…… dun…..dun…..dun

*Side note* this sentence "No, you share with Leeteuk hyung. I wouldn't sleep there if you paid me," cracks me up.

Chapter 92

*Oh a note on the alternate version since this is where it comes in at.  I love that version it’s much more impactful, but also completely unrealistic, thank you for writing it though.*

I’m glad Kyu is not being beaten, for the first time after a team celebration

This comment from Sungmin,"If I'm not mistaken, it's more like, they really hate each other," makes me laugh, I really do love him.

Leeteuk and Kyuhyun having an actual civil conversation?!? *gasp* Say it isn’t so, I don’t believe it.

I love how Kyu asks Teukie if he had these meetings before Kyu joined and Teukie just smiles and sends him to bed, it’s so devious

Leeteuk’s new nickname is two faced Teuk.

It is nice to see Kyu get some revenge on Minhyun

Chapter 93

Yay, for Kyu being happy and fitting in and having some fun with the members, even if the members are faking it, which is really kind of sad.

I still think it’s hilarious and kind of sad that Kyu is stealing a broom from the SM building to use at the office, because really after Minhyun leaves who does he think that broom is going to be used on, it’s going to go back to the way things were before

Chapter 94

I’m disappointed in Kyu in this chapter, I understand wanting to get some revenge on Minhyun, but he knows better than anyone what Minhyun is going through, and I know that Minhyun was absolutely terrible to him as a trainee, but I really thought he had more compassion than that.

But he is only human so I guess I’ll let it go.

Chapter 95

I’ve said this before too, but they really should feel guilty about what they did it really was a mean spirited thing to do.

But hooray for KRY and Sukira and the soon to be other sub groups

Chapter 96

I can just imagine them all sitting in that restaurant with Ryeowook chattering away and Yesung and Kyuhyun being all awkward turtle with each other and the manager just sitting there watching them.  The tension must have been thick enough to cut with a knife.

The managers solution to this one is a creative one though

Chapter 97

Kyuhyun’s Kangin confusion is hilarious

And Kyu, you’re being really stupid and you deserve what you are about to get.

Chapter 98

Ouch, but you deserved it

CALL YOUR MOTHER

You’ll figure it out Kyu, stop trying to please everybody.

Chapter 99

Jonghyun to the rescue hooray

I hope he gets in touch with his parents soon

Hooray for Teuk actually giving some advice

Oh, and hooray for Kyu getting his full pay back.

I hope his parents pick up

Chapter 100*

OH MY GOD!!!!

Kyu, you're really an idiot sometimes

AND I can’t believe I just did that,

It is SUPER long but I hope you enjoyed it and I didn’t just creep you out completely,

I’m really not completely insane I just love your story, and I had a bit of time on my hands and I’m putting off the work I should be doing right now.  It’s amazing the things you can get done, when they’re things you’re not supposed to be doing.  My roommates used to love when I had a paper due because the dorm would get clean from me putting off doing my paper, lol hooray for procrasti-cleaning.

  And now I’m rambling so I’m just going to say Love you Janie, Love your story can’t wait for the next chapter