So I'm roleplaying as Choi Sooyoung in an RP that is really damn active.A lot of new rpers came into this rp.

So I wanted Eunhyuk on the Wishlist,since he's my bias.Then,he came.I was so happy and glad.A few days alter,we were in a relationship.Then,we broke up.I wasn't that hurt,because it's just an RP afterall.He left because he was busy.

A few months later,it felt like the RP was apart of me.So I went there almost everyday.I also got close to IU there,and she became my sister.Right after me and Eunhyuk broke up,she was dying for a Myungsoo.She went through the same situation as me.She dated him,and officially broke up after he left.

So I moved on.But then,I kept wishing for other people that I have been keeping my eye on in real life.

I wished for a Luhan.

So he came.I talked to him about how he's my bias,and we talked and talked a lot.I was happy with him.But,it seemed like he didn't get my hint.Because the RP itself allows ,he wanted a Sehun.So,I let him go.

I wished for a Dongwoo next.

Then,a lot of other girls came( Uee,Hyosung etc.)

So,he came.There was a new Dongwoo.I talked to him.But at the same time,IU also has feelings for him.I thought to myself,"But this is unfair.I wished for him first,and I like him.It's really unfair to me." But I also thought,"But,she's my sister.She went through a lot of pain,I did too.But a lot of people cared about her more than me.I'll sacrifice him for her." So I did.I sacrificed Dongwoo to her.Since then,I didn't talk to him anymore.

I was already hurt enough,until I didn't know where Luhan went.

And there came another girl,Park Jiyeon from T-ara.She's really active,bright and cheerful.She practically spammed every group we had.I used to be like that...until she stole my spotlight and gets all the care from everyone else.

I didn't wish for a Luhan,but she was dying for one.That's why she spammed every group,only just to post every pic of him.Okay,I admit,I really hate her.Everytime I log in,there's always at least 2 notifications that says Jiyeon this,Jiyeon that..I'm not saying I hate Jiyeon as in the idol,but I hate her as in the RPer.

One day,Yoona(admin) posted on the notice board,posting a picture of Luhan.Luhan.There was another Luhan.So,it only meant that the other Luhan left.And this was a new one.There's a new Luhan on board.At first,I didn't care about Jiyeon,I was thinking about myself.Then I thought,"Jiyeon really likes him,but I do too.She's already probably talking to him about how he's her bias and that she was dying to have him here." 

Still,I was too stubborn.Even though I know that Jiyeon might have probably spammed his wall,I still greeted him.Now I'm waiting for his reply.

Suddenly,that moment when I was still online,another notification came.It was Jiyeon.She posted in the Girls' room,saying how she really really likes him.

"I want him so badly too,and I've already sacrificed Dongwoo,I don't wanna lose another one again.But as much as I hate Jiyeon,it wouldn't be right for me to steal him away,even if he wants to date me.I'll sacrifice." I thought.

Sacrifice.

I sacrificed a lot for other people to be happy. 3

I posted that on the confessions.I still hate Jiyeon for doing this,even though I know she doesn't know anything.

I am expressing my feelings now to Jiyeon.

"I sacrified a lot for you guys.I tried,I cried,yet,I do it again.I hope one day you guys will realise how much pain I took in for you.I also want some people really badly,but do you have to rub it in,everyday?Please,don't do this anymore.Or else,I will do something really childish too.This is just an RP to you guys,but an RPer has feelings too,okay?They get hurt when other people steal their biases.Just having that person here is already grateful to me,so you should too.Be grateful that he/she's here.Don't just go to an RP just to date him/her.Don't be too delusional too.Cause it will turn into a dramma,and we don't like dramas now,do we?Anyway,I really sacrificed a lot,please give me a chance too,ne?I don't wanna be mean to you guys,because I keep them all to myself.Think of me too,please.." 

Now,I'm wishing for BTOB's Minhyuk.Please...just give me one chance.