What?

I'm tired. Yes, Really Really Really TIRED.

tired of?

i'm tired of being ignored. being friendless other than other few closer ones here which i don't treat them as friends anymore.

they're part of my life already, so they are not just "friends"

i'm tired of being hired at sooooo many shops and not getting any requests. it's not the shop's fault, but i don't think it's mine either.

who to blame then?

i'm tired of being rejected and not being told. i'm tired of waiting for just some messages to come.

am i not good enough? i don't want to compare, but am i not good enough?

maybe it's the exam stress that makes me feels so out of place. maybe i should write, like most are expected to here. 

not just design some crap that will never get acknowledge.

so much questions... so  l i t t l e  chances. am i wrong?

yes. i'm officially depressed. and insane. and in denial. i don't usually say this, but it.

DA is crowding, i'm getting more messages and  favorites. maybe 'cause it's fashion. maybe 'cause i'm able to do everything i want to there.

but i've been ignoring them for quite a while. i got addicted here.

or am i wrong again?

maybe i shall write something. like a story. but i'm not a fan of exo, or suju, or snsd, or jyp, or any other grp other than my small yg bubble.

is that the reason? why are they not widely recognised here?

i actually promised someone that i'll bring yg into the fanfic world through my designs. but so far, all my request consists of at least 1 exo member.

they aren't bad. but they aren't my thing.

i want everyone else to know that yg is strong. but sm is too hard to beat. jyp is up there too.

i don't want fan wars, but i don't like anyone being too under rated.

what is life? entertainment? media?

my head hurts.

i'm tired. of everything.

please, get out of my life.