I have nothing else but this blog that I barely open. I have no other place to turn to. I left my "ohana" just now, my internet home. My best friends in school are offline and i don't want to bother them by calling at such a late time. My family, which consists of just my mother and my father, doesn't understand; I don't want them to. I don't want them to share my pain.

I'm sitting here writing this alone in my house as tears roll down my cheeks and violent hiccups and sobs shake me from my very core. I must look like a mess. I haven't eaten since Friday, and everything since then has deteriorated besides that. 

I don't know what's wrong with me. I just need someone to save me before I go. Before I let myself dissappear for good.

There are things I can confess, but I won't.

Instead, I'll just share my thanks for everyone who has contributed to this pathetic life of mine.

Thank you to Andrew, to Diptodip, to Lisa, to Michelle, to Elaine, to Hazel, to Areesha, to Jessie, to Lauren, to Katie, to Sydney, to Liying, to Elizabeth, to Andrea, to Stacia, to Aster, to Brittany, to Sarah, to Lui, to Michael, to Mewhsish (sorry, i know i spelled it wrong), to Tiffany, to Pinky, to Carissa, to Colette, to Keeshia, to Tracy, to Tori, to Megan, to Sukhpreet, to Monica, to Therena, to Carol, to Jwohong who I never found out the name of, to Lior, to Ann, and those unnamed.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

To those of you who even bothered to open this blog post: thank you.