i am not sad!!....since the day kangin went he would say he would go soon...kangin came back and he was still here :) mentally i am prepared!!

and i am not worried...i know i am faithful to the group...i know them as family!! 

and i know time flies...so it will be alright eventually :)

but what i am scared of is him leaving twitter!!! he can do WHATEVER and be with WHOMEVER in this world, but all what i want is to keep in touch via twitter!! am i asking for much??....i know it is -100% he would do it but i am still worried...

i will miss this old 'not in age' fellow...you know...kangin went and came back and after couple of moths heechul will be back too...but eeteuk?....eeteuk is.....my god father if i can say!!....my angel...truly my angel...and i am not saying this because of his nick name.... eeteuk's relationship with ELF is waaay differant from any other..wether it's a SJ member or any other fandom with any other member of any other group!!...eeteuk is EETEUK...so dont feel weird if some overreacted!!....

things will be alright eventually...things will be good...and who knows...maybe, JUSTTT maybe -as in my dreams kind of maybe- i will be there the day he comes out cheering for him live!! ;))

let's hope he stays safe.....him and people in the east coast -NY-!! part of my family in there and i am worried about them!!

ANNNNNND...for siwon to eventually change his mind about those scenarios on his mind for his hair, lol

P.S. i know he will look just fine with longer hair...heck, he has done it before anyway!! but because he is taking this stubbornly....tsk...things wont be good!!...THEY WILL BE INTERESTING kekeke...

anywaaaaayyyy... it's 4 AM in here and still 11 AM in thereeeeee i want to sleeeeep!! but am debating with my brain that i cant go to sleep without saying goodbye to the leader..

LEADER TETE TEUKIE TEUKIE...IT'S AN AND....ONLY FOR YOU...

*this is the fanboy from 7th anniversary party :) 

*** after i posted this by 10 minutes i thought........I AM WORRIED!!!...it feels weird knowing he will be staying in a forgin place with no one he knows for over than A MONTH!!!......i am worried and sad and scared -_____-