I made this blog and I dedicated it to someone, who should know when she reads this...but also because I just wanted to thank my friends here...

I was watching SNSD's video on youtube *here's the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ruaGdqcusg&feature=related*

I was really thinking after this and I teared up, it reminded me how important a mother is in each and everyone of our lives and also how friends are so important to me as well. Sometimes I wonder, how can anyone like someone like me? I'm not even normal in the least lol and I can't do anything without failing or falling, tripping and hurting myself first. Its so hard to believe that I have best friends and when the world around me seems to crash into a darkness where I can't pick myself up because there's no hand or light from above to guide me, I tell myself to stand up and do my best in life. To succeed, to help others and never despise others...

My best friends are so different from me, and I know I'm not exactly the easiest type to be friends with. To learn to let down a wall just once, is hard and once you let it down, its hard to put back up again, I've been told how cold, mature and indifferent I seem yet its not something I can help. Experience teaches you and I've learned so much at this young age already. To let tears fall is so hard, to wipe them back so easy, to say hello so friendly, yet say goodbye with vengeance, to punch so easily, to hug so very very impossible, to struggle alone endlessly, to rely on others is like reaching out to the horizon that enlightens and touches the sea.

There is a saying "Opposites attract."........people apply it differently, some to friendship and others to umm....a word I don't like to use...something that goes ro*****...I apply it to friendship...my best friends all are so happy, happy-go-lucky, cheerful and happy...I'm like an ice that only melts every once awhile before forming again. My friends to be cheesy while I'm blunt and ignorant (I don't mind XD) I'm just so ....different... from them, even normal people wonder, how can they be best friends?

I really don't understand yet why I even wrote so much on this blog post...but sincerely from my heart I want say

"In this world, although I might not make a difference, even if I don't let go of grudges easily, don't let down walls easily or don't give hugs easily, I want to thank those I have met. They've made a difference in my life and I'll never let go of a precious  friendship. The stars are endless, the sunset is fast, time passes before as though we're watching a mere film so I'm going to take this chance to say thank you to all my friends, unnies and dongsaengies."

I don't know what tomorrow brings, so I'm writing this now. I understand how life passes quickly, one of my extremely close friends happened to pass away because of the tsunami...I wish him happiness where ever he might be as I type this right now...memories are like fragments of my tears, they run in my mind like tears run down my face, and I taste the saltiness, just as I feel the emotions running through me...I want to thank those who have inspired me so much and pay tribute to all my friends out there who happen to read this.......the sunset ends in less than 10 seconds if it is a beautiful moment, as it is, beautiful things never do stay for long....so I shall learn to treasure my friends and family every day...

Again, thank you~

~~~~Arianna~~~~~