KPOP Phase is Over - So is my writing.

Perhaps some of you have been aware upon seeing my status that I'm almost entirely over KPOP now. I no longer fangirl or spazz over pictures of idols, and I hardly listen to the music anymore. Writing fanfiction based on KPOP seems to be turning into a burden for me more than anything else. The ideas just aren't coming out, and I feel as if SHINee isn't as popular as before. The site is being covered (almost) by EXO fanfiction, and I must admit that most of them aren't worthy of being the featured area.

When I first started writing fanfiction, every single song that I listened to was KPOP. It felt as if I was almost too attracted to the culture and music to the point where I wanted to be a Korean. Now that I look back at it, I realized how immature and ignorant I must've been. Being obssessed over one thing is not a bad virtue, but I should've known where the limits were. I've now understood that there is no point in writing if all I'm doing is just to finish the story as soon as possible. If there's no feelilngs or thoughts put in a chapter, there's really no point posting it.

I don't want to write anymore.

I don't want to write about KPOP or SHINee anymore.

I want to challenge myself and write down my own thoughts, my own characters and input a personality, a life into them by my own hands. I'll dictate everything and make sure that though my readers have a say in it, they shouldn't be changing the way I think about my characters, story and plot. Perhaps it was the overwhelming sensation of having people compliment and read my story that made me continue writing. However, I think it ended being me just writing for the sake of pleasuring my readers and not myself. 

I want to write to please myself.

I want to write something that matches my standards and tastes, not KPOP fandom's or shipper's standards and taste.

I'm still hesitant whether to just stop writing fanfiction once and for all. That being said, I don't want to just stop something I've started without finishing it. I don't want to leave anyone hanging about the rest of the plot and just tell them to go read something else.

But, what's the point of writing if I no longer enjoy it?

I'll be making a decision very soon as to whether I should stop or not. If I do stop, by any chance, I will be focusing solely on my original piece of work. There's nothing in that story that is affiliated with Koreans or anything of the kind. Perhaps it's time for me to stop and just think about what I'm really going to do.

Writing fanfiction was too - just like KPOP - just a phase for me. Sooner or later, perhaps without me expecting anything, I would be over it. I'd thought to quit before university, but maybe...just maybe, now is the right time to do so.

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Quibbles #1
This post is so old and I never got to know you but I wish I had because I think we would have gotten along. I hope you're happy writing now..And the EXO reign continues 3 years later.
prettyflowergirl #2
I've always been a fan of stories or anything original in general. Its sad that those stories are not read too often on here, because I feel like if people decided to write some stories that have original characters and no kpop individuals, those people would write something amazing :)

I was the same last year; only I still listened to kpop. I felt like writing fanfiction for singers was...I don't know how to describe it exactly, the feeling I had that is. So I started writing book drama's with all original characters because that's what I wanted to write. Of course, I never posted any because i never finished them.

Here's the point I'm trying to make: if you want to try something new, go for it! Don't let ANYONE tell you CAN'T because there will always be someone who will say you can't. I had friends who would shrug at my ideas, or shake their head at what I was saying. That was after I decided to do what I did/ Focus on what you want to do, maybe one day you will come back and decide to start writing fanfic again or maybe you won't. I love the sound of your confidence, you sound like a person with a GOOD imagination, so don't let anyone stop you if they try in the future :)

Also, you're not alone in this :) When I started writing my stuff, I knew it wouldn't match people's taste, but I didn't care at all! My story has taken over two years to write and hasn't been posted yet, and I know it won't be popular, and kpop fans won't like it, but whatever! It's what I want to post.

Write what you want to write because you are unique and have super ideas that no one else will be able to think up <3 :)
silentescapade #3
As I've always said to you, the decision is always yours no matter what. We want you to write only for yourself. It'd be very selfish if we only wanted you to write for us readers. I can definitely understand where you're coming from with all of this, and being torn between writing the rest of your stories here or not.

But if you don't want to, then don't. We shouldn't be able to make that decision for you. If you feel that it's the right thing to do and you feel that you really need to do it, then go ahead. No one is making you do one or the other. So don't feel pressured into doing something, and just take your time thinking about it. :)

I've had a lot of phases in my life, and I knew I was just going to get over it. I definitely know that one day, my KPOP phase will also end. But right now, I'm just enjoying it while I can, I guess.

Clearly (since it is stated above), you don't want to write about KPOP anymore. So, please, don't. I hate pushing people on this site to write more and update really soon. I used to do it before I realized how rude it sounded. It is a burden to you, so there would be no real purpose in writing here.

I like the sound of you challenging yourself with writing about a whole new world with new characters and everything. I feel that you are the type of person that would do an amazing job with that. Your imagination is just so beyond creativity.

Yes, I can say that I did love reading your stories. Your writing is just incredible. And you are definitely one of my favorite authors on AFF, so I hope you don't delete your account so that I can maybe come back and reread some stuff. (^_^)

This sounds like an official goodbye...but it's not. XD Don't rush on that decision, okay? We'll wait for as long as you need~

~SL777 <333
Isadora_Quagmire #4
Oh, and I'm glad I met you, too, hahaha~
Isadora_Quagmire #5
It's unfortunate that this fandom wasn't anything real to you. I wish it was, since I really enjoyed reading you.

Hope you continue your writing in general. We'll miss your JongKey, but I'm sure anything else you write will be just as amazing <3
Onceuponafanfic #6
It will all eventually happen to all of us one day, we'll wake up and realise that what we've been fangirling over, isn't actually worth fangirling for. I had that drop a few months ago, I only care for 3 - 5 groups but in all honesty I can't stand the rest.

Good luck with everything though and I wish you all the best in writing :)
MerleAmarius #7
I don't consider what I do a phase, I still like my stuff. What you do is your decision, we all still like to see what you really can do without the fandom as well as with it. Good luck, stay happy. :)
aucklandnz91 #8
Omo, you still haven't finished jongkey's story... X(
Btw, nowadays I realize that liking kpop and become a shipper of some couple is a temporary phase...
Many writers I know and enjoying their story has stopped writing cos they wanna face their real life...
I liking kpop since 2008 and almost 5 years to love it...
I don't know when my phase of kpop passing me... X(
MrStark #9
I can understand, and relate to you - though I hope I don´t get over this phase in a looong time~ But I hope that even though you might not write k-pop fanfiction anymore you could still post you work here, or at least give your subscribers a way to keep reading your stories. I really love your writing and all the stories I´ve read from you - and I really want to keep reading in the future. ^^
ErisChaotica #10
It's your life, your decision, so if it's become a burden to you, then there's nothing wrong with quitting.

Writing fan fiction is a phase for me, too, and I always wonder when it will end, but the premises of my stories aren't solely fandom-based, so I guess I have something sustaining my writing outside of fandom and shippers' standards. I write stuff that I'd enjoy writing even if no kpop idols were involved, and that's probably what will keep me going for longer than fandom alone would.
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